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Christina Myers
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since 1999-06-21
Posts 159


0 posted 1999-08-14 12:56 PM


28 years
and still I am unloveable
still
I falter into falling
giving with a heart
that knows no different
and
has never felt the sunshine of reward;
the returned feeling.

I fight against the bitter taste
rejection leaves in me
and turn my face into light
thinking the next day will reveal answers
or at least some trace of hope
that has not yet been denied.

And all this swirls into the memories
of the first time you hurt me
a myriad of sorrows
that I've saved to draw upon:

your face: open
your voice: brittle against my ears
saying the words that I have always had thrown at me

how many times will no one want me
how many broken pieces are there left to shatter

28 years
and still unloveable
28 years
and still I falter.

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And I thought: this is how poetry is born. It comes from invisible heights, it is secret and dark in its origins, solitary and fragrant, and like the river it will assimilate whatever falls in its current; it will seek a route between the mountains, and its crystalline song will ripple through the meadows."- Pablo Neruda

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Christina Myers
Member
since 1999-06-21
Posts 159

1 posted 1999-08-14 03:08 PM


once again, at the bottom of the list
I wonder- is it me? is it something I said?


Sally S.
Senior Member
since 1999-06-07
Posts 847
Ohio
2 posted 1999-08-14 05:11 PM


It's certainly not you, Christina. Speaking for myself, I find it difficult to respond to someone's pain...what can I say?? I feel the emotion you convey... Don't be discouraged...it's not you, or your poem.
Artur Hawkwing
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since 1999-06-30
Posts 444
USA
3 posted 1999-08-14 05:18 PM


An ocean of pain.
elvira
Senior Member
since 1999-07-06
Posts 936
California
4 posted 1999-08-15 12:13 PM


don't worry about a poem disappearing...imagine what it feels like to sink to page 60+...love your self, dear poetess
Severn
Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-17
Posts 7704

5 posted 1999-08-15 05:00 AM


I think this is absolutely wonderful, Christina, simply wonderful. I like the way you have the word 'still' standing alone and the way you connect 'falter' at the beginning and end of the poem. Lovely work.
Sue
Member
since 1999-08-04
Posts 383
France
6 posted 1999-08-15 12:04 PM


Back to the top you go - and remember, no-one is unlovable, some people are lucky sooner, that's all.
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