Billings, MT USA
Will someone please explain to me
just what I need to know?
I look for answers carefully,
but none do seem to show.
When itís love that you would die for,
just where is it you go,
when One you love betrays you more
than you would like to know?
Could someone please shed light on me
and let me know whatís real?
Iíve been betrayed so truthfully-
I donít know how to feel.
Wondering if itís another...
it bites upon my heel.
Iím a wife and Iím a mother-
Iím losing what is real.
Where does he go in dead of night?
Where is he when I wake?
Why is it I go through this fright?
Did I make a mistake?
Perhaps, some day I will find trust
if my life He should take.
For now, Iíll do just what I must.
From nightmares I will wake.
These dreams of madness keep me sane.
I lie in bed alone.
Like raindrops on the window pane,
I fall to earth and stone.
I roll in mud, the filth and muck.
I hear the gentle drone.
I find that I am all but stuck.
And I am all alone.
©1999 Erin Solari
"She looked at her life
like lines, never-ending,
reforming and bending."