There is no truth
in my hiding
no noble serenity in my avoidance
I stray away from the problem
simply because it's easier
simply because I'm afraid
of rocking this boat
that we find ourselves floating on-
two people keeping time
over something they can't control.
I don't want to lose you.
So I keep the feelings -the heart of me
inside- safely wrapped in friendship.
Pretending your ambiguous state doesn't hurt me-
Ignoring that I'm dying each time we touch.
And I know what I should do-
there is no misconception there
down to that- my weakness is complete
and my strength is lost in the fog you create in my head-
I am useless in the shadow of your grace.
So I understand that I am at the end of the pointing finger-
I am the person to blame.
What can I do but love you?
What can I do with me?
"And with the courage that the lonely or
the foolish keep- I set the clock, turn out the light and do not dream and do not sleep."