los banos, ca,
where are you now,
am i in your thoughts,
and do you see the tears,
that i cried for you today?
can you tell me,
that i still shouldnt worry,
and that you love only me,
just like you promised?
is it worth it to you,
to have to watch me fall apart,
just for your instant of freedom,
and still you say you need me in your life.
will i regret, all of this,
loving you this much,
after its all said and done,
or can i count on our forever?
when you say im beautiful,
is it just ment to console me,
trick me into thinking,
im enough to satisfy you?
if i asked you to be honest,
could you still look into my eyes,
and lie to me like before,
saying that this is all real to you,
and would i be able to handle it if you did?
if i told you im in love agian,
would that turn your soul to ice agian,
would you turn me away agian,
deep inside would you be affriad agian?
now that im the one asking the questions,
does that make me the mistake this time,
am i the one to blame this time,
for looking out for my emotions,
im sorry that it wont be as easy to break me this time.
that is if your staying around to do so.