Hazel Park Mi U.S.A.
I grew up in the same situation. It is very hard to hear the man you are supposed to look up to tell you that. My father was the same way. When he was sober we were the most important things in his life, But get a little alcohol in his system and we were the worst thing in his life. Every night he came home he would beat the hell out of my mother and then we would leave. Even though i had a home i basically grew up in 10,000 different hotels. But I always wondered something that sticks with me today. If he knew he did the stuff to us when he was drunk, and he supposedly loved us when he was sober why did he drink in the first place. Now after 21 years my mother finally divorced him and he only sees me when I choose, He has become more of a father to me but the same kind of husband to his new wife. All the physical and mental abuse is the same. I guess he will never change. Now that I am older and i don't have to live with him I choose when I see him which is only when he is sober I have the father I always wanted. It still hurts when I think of what he did to us and everything he said to me but it also taught me a lot. I am a stronger women because of him, I would never take that from anyone, plus I don't drink do drugs, or abuse my child. I only wanted to share this with you because I hope you don't feel alone in this situation. There are always people you can talk to who can help you or just listen if you need it. If you ever need to talk about it or need advice e-mail me.