*** There is an uglier side in us all that is sometimes hard to face, but it is better if we do, for only then can we learn to control it and start to make it better...***
Tonight I saw a side of me
that I never knew existed;
a side of which I'm so abashed!
So ugly, warped and twisted!
Something inside me seemed to snap
and I burst with inner rage,
and once out I lost all command
of this monster set free from it's cage.
It made me say things I didn't mean
with words that stung the soul,
and afterwards I felt no regret,
for wrath had taken control.
I felt no pity for those I hurt,
though those I hurt were many.
This anger left me without much heart,
and sympathy... I had not any.
I betrayed the trust of those who cared;
It made me cheat and lie!
And when accused of all I had done,
I had no choice but to deny!
It made me manipulate those I loved,
for my benefit alone,
and the only person's feelings
it let me care for where my own.
Oh, enough of this self-deceiving!
I really know the truth.
It wasn't the anger itself
that caused me such lack of ruth.
This side of me I dread facing
is something I have to accept,
and hope that in the future
people are willing to forgive and forget.
As for now, I swear to you
I'm so utterly full of shame.
But remorse cannot erase the fact
that I'm the only one to blame.