I wish I was strong enough to force you out of my mind,
But then I wish I was naive enough to still believe that love is really blind.
I know I shouldn't want you back, I know that it is wrong,
But I also know you're the only one who made me feel special, even if it wasn't for all that long.
I wish I didn't miss your arms around me or you whispers in my ear,
You can't imagine how much I wish I believed myself when I say how much I just don't care.
I know I should just be thankful for the attention that I got,
And I know I should just stop wishing for things that never were, things that just were not.
But there's only 2 more things I wish and 1 more that I know:
I wish that tonight when I lay my head down, for once I would not cry.
And I wish I could forgive myself for deep down always knowing that I never really loved you--I only loved a lie.
[This message has been edited by Shannon (edited 03-20-2000).]