It feels like you are coming back to me, So I leave it all there. Suddenly I know how it feels To lose someone so close to your heart... When you don't want to move anything For the fear that they won't come back If you make yourself realize they are gone. That is how I feel... But even if I don't change my sheets for a year, It won't bring you back. Even if I throw away the half-empty cigarette packs You won't be back for them soon. If I don't wash your pillowcase forever It won't make you any closer to me. Time stands still when you aren't with me I can't find the right rhythm... But, let me pause my world a little longer Because it hurts too deep right now. I don't want to get back to where I was before Because I never knew your touch then. I never knew how good it felt in your arms Or how sweet and tender a kiss could be... Just let me hold to your memories Until we can be that close again.
(written months ago-a selection from my website....just reminiscing again...~m~)