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#5 PS Junior Member
since 1999-06-21
Posts 19Ogden, Utah, USA |
PLACES Feeling fine all the time I’ve got yours and I’ve got mine I have played my last game In a pool of drowning shame I seek my corner by myself I want the loneliness and no one else So tired of this So tired of that I wish I was gone, hit and flat Stars surround the emptiness to be I wish I was a star that no one could see A star that burned only by force To make me face my dark remorse Shooting, floating, all go away I’m back I’m gone, I’m here to stay Stay with me my child of happy times Long for the journey that my soul calls mine Look to the big, round, blue ball of disgust Look behind me to see a cloud of dust Floating falling so silently Floating falling to swallow me Speed up slow down I don’t understand How can I swim and never reach land The pressure is on from outside to in With all this pressure I cannot win I could overcome if I really did try But in the process my sanity will die Call me call me again and again Call me to tell me that you will win I pick up the hook and the voices do haunt Screaming laughing they’re here to taunt Just go away it will be alright Do the deed and lay down for the night Float away like the star you are When they come looking you’ll be too far Too far to recover from the death grip fear Too far away for them to hear Your pleading and wanting to be like them Your anger insanity from guilt does stem My mind raced and I ran away Please forgive me for the things I say I know not what comes out I hear things I say and just want to shout At the top of my lungs to clean it through In my hateful time of being blue Liquid of life is causing my death Electrical current to take away the breath Another attempt at sanity Shut your mouth and bleed silently Don’t let them hear you be so true You know they’ll only laugh at you Sink down, blurriness up above Rotted myself over a dying love Destroy the world for all its worth Every inch of planet earth Plain and simple that says it all No life from you, humanity did fall You give it up before you start You stand on stage with no part She yells and yells to get thru to me I gave you everything, can’t you see? I ask nothing in return but time to myself She took me for granted and put me on the shelf The shelf of hurting freaks that pollute this place 110% given but thrown in my face I was a child whom I barely new A child who is strong and true Not knowing what is to be Blindfolded and gagged you cannot see Live your life foolishly dumb Say your hurtful things, I am numb Understand, think, and just press on My ugliness from hurt did not spawn It came from my true inner self that I did see It came from people pissing on me It came from disgust with what I hate It was my true black soul with no open gate Lies you hear and you believe I turn my back so you cant see What I am all this time Is a broken down fool without a dime Please move on and forget the worst Find someone better to quench your thirst Your mom and dad to stand by your side On top of the world in your moment of pride Life for you, good as it is Make dreams come true so he has his Confident in your upstanding way Confident that you were happy that day That day I turned and left the world behind You went about your business with a clear mind Fret not care not, you are who you are I cannot turn back after coming this far Set aside my pain for a little while Type type type let the letters pile I show my pain you do not care I guess I deserve it for my evil stare I spit and kicked I got my way I lived life just to get my pay Why do I do this, I do not know I guess it was just me, it was not a show Sorry bout that, sorry bout this My life with you I will dearly miss Here I go again stuck in between The things I said were extremely mean Afraid to go on afraid to go back I am tortured by a world that is deathly black Dream of times when life was good I wish to treat you better I know I should You can’t see my point, try if you could Life to end surround me with wood Lower the vault of eternal sleep I can only pray for you to keep A place in your heart that is so sincere A place in your heart without a fear A fear of me coming back A fear of me trying to attack Your mind that was so strong Your mind that really pushed you along I won’t do it, I am not there You can move on without a care No worries for you No worries for me My life in the dirt In the distance I see God its done I won’t turn back Push me down into that crack Of unforgiving life alone Rot away and turn to stone I might be back who really knows? My true self reluctantly shows Throw your flowers pile them on Cry your tears now I’m gone Why didn’t you cry while I was here? You turned and walked without a tear Made me feel so small at best My problems unwanted like the rest Its ok you have it great My last ditch effort was too late WHEN I come back I know what to do I will show you that its true That I was a person full of love I was a person up above The depths of sorrow that I’m in now I’ll try to come back, if you allow I’ll think things thru before I say I’ll make your problems go away Aerial view of your life to be An awesome view I will see As far ahead Or as far back Or close my eyes and see only black Its my choice now, I’m in control Back and fourth as if in a bowl A place to me I wont forget Take my hand so I don’t sit Walk with me until I sigh Goodbye all its time to die ~This is about suicide and the rude awakening in my life~ ------------------ #5 Poetic Society |
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Krystal Member
since 1999-06-19
Posts 140Shelton,WA USA |
So sad... I love the courage that you have to face issues such as this one. ------------------ Shannon D. Montgomery ("Krystal") |
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#5 PS Junior Member
since 1999-06-21
Posts 19Ogden, Utah, USA |
Krystal, Thank you so much for the reply, this one is hard to follow because of its length and is sort of repetitive, but serves its purpose, and thats to release those emotions! (any luck with the JPG yet?  |
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