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Open Poetry #1

Only in a Dream

tori
Senior Member

since 1999-06-18

Posts 520
Mechanicsville, Maryland, USA

0 posted 1999-06-20 01:52 PM

Only in a dream

I've asked my self where do I go
what is the answer to the load I tow
Around in circles my mind does swim
Always coming back to him

I've tried so hard to find the truth
something I've lost in my youth
Now I'm older with years behind
Still somehow it slips my mind
As each day I hold so dear
again brings me back, right here

If I had told the feelings inside
just put away my foolish pride
If I had made the journey down
the road that leads to what I've found
My life would be at its end
Again, its here that keeps me pinned

My course was charted so long ago
Why, I wonder but I'll never know
There is no answer from above
Yet still I give him all my love
I believe my God will hold me near
And wash away the troubles here
So all that come down my road
Will never have to bear this load
As I rest in slumbered sleep
in peace and comfort that he keeps.
All my pain will disappear ,
will come to pass, yes go away
forgotten, in a brand new day

As I breath the air of the earth
I roll over all my worldly worth
and seek to find the happy times
of Love and Joy that should be mine
Then it is that truth sets in
and takes me back to where I am

My legs don't move as they should do,
Hands with pain I go through
As sweetness fills my body blind
Ten thousand tears I seem to find
As age comes on me day by day
I feel my time is swept away
And again it brings me back to him

To all that could and might have been
If just one year I could have spent
In hopeless bless and love content
A restless spirit flying free in grace and in honesty

Something I lost in my youth kept me harbored from the truth
And sleep was so-so hard to find that dreams came in a waking mind
To show me of the love I lost, all at my own careless cost.
For fear of holding down the one I love,
To need this body young and strong,
knowing that nothing lasts too long,
To live the dreams etched in my mind
Would be unfair and so unkind

And so I take upon myself and let him go to find someone else, I hope he leads a normal life And finds the peace within himself
I'll take the love he gave to me and cherish it so tender, I'll wear upon my face a smile, as I heavens grace I enter

One day soon he will know just why it is I let him go
I hope then he will understand that loving him was oh so grand, and letting him go was worse then any fear I could ever have of leaving here
And having to say good bye was not of choice for me
Was what had to be, for both of us to be free

Now my mind can dream aloud as I hold my head up, acting proud
Inside is where the pain does rest I wear the scares with in my chest
As I keep within this broken crypt the wishes of the things I missed
Places, people sights I've seen, yet love,
only in a dream.

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tori 1999

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