los banos, ca,
i watch as you feel nothing,
tears slowly fall from my eyes,
im still so in love with you,
in your shalllowness, my soul dies.
i feel your hands brush across my skin,
as you say"this doesnt have to be the last time,"
i know in my heart it never is,
because it hurts to much to say goodbye.
i need your laughter in my life,
it echoes in and out,
my solemn immaturity,
is what you claim its all about.
ive held your abscense in my hands,
it poured thick like sand,
its placed by the empty promises,
you tried to keep now and then.
you tell me that im beautiful,
something ive never heard before,
knowing that ill give into you,
because my heart is forever yours.
i know i can never hold your soul,
the way that you do mine,
and even though i do with all my heart,
i cant say i love you this time.
i wanted to find forever,
in the tears that slowly fell,
my heart sank inside itself,
as once agian you put me through hell.
i pray for the day,
when you finally fall in love,
just to see them break your heart,
the way you have so easily done.
eventually heartache fades,
but the scares are here to stay,
waking me each night,
with the faint whisper of my name.