I'm looking for a sign,
A message from the powers that be,
To tell me I'm doing it right,
This is what is meant for me.
I need that signal, that little talisman
In whatever form it may come,
To confirm for me this is your time of reflection,
Don't weaken, don't come undone.
For the last 6 months it seems,
I've been on that emotional merry go round,
Not knowing where I'm going,
Looking for something that perhaps can't be found.
This 'slog' goes on daily,
Sometimes I'm up, sometimes I'm down,
Does the world think of me as I think of myself,
Thinking I'm just a clown?
Each day I look for the sign that isn't there,
Some sign to show me it's coming,
An end to these tumultous emotions,
A renewed soul overbrimming with loving.
A hero is a man who does what he can.
(The Fragile Rose)