Thanks for all you comments, I tried to put less I's... no matter what the meaning of this poem is still the same..
You said that girl you kissed last night met nothing, and you'll never see her again, so I take you back on your word, and my ears reject all your new promises and place them with the empty ones they already heard.
And still, my lonely heart takes you back, even with all this pain and worry laid upon my chest, but I guess its something I have to settle for when I settle for second best.
And maybe you don't know how much you hurt me or maybe that is what you like, but I always seem to let you..... And I don't know why I let this go so far, maybe I'm just afraid to be alone, or maybe pain is the only real thing I ever knew....
I feel like I'm going backwards up a slide and its all my fault that my life is such a mess, but I guess its something that I want, but don't want to settle for, but don't think I deserve more than second best..