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Echo Rhayne
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since 09-17-99
Posts 1538
Canyon Country, CA


0 posted 09-22-1999 02:40 AM       View Profile for Echo Rhayne   Email Echo Rhayne   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to Submit your Poem to Passions  View IP for Echo Rhayne

As I sit cross-legged
on my bedroom floor
my heart beats wildly in my chest.

The feel of the cool razor blade
between my fingers
calms my agitation.

Soon everything
will be better!

I think of the pain,
and press the edge of the blade
into the soft flesh
on the belly of my inner arm.
Then I drag it painlessly accross
until blood beads up,
and the incision grapes angrily.

I exhale;
tension floods my body.
If it doesn't bleed
then I have failed.

I love this control
I have over my body.
The way it helps me to focus.
The point that the scars
on my arms and legs
say things I can't articulate.

I want to make myself
feel something.
The way everybody around me
seems to.

The physical feeling
of cutting myself
is the same as the emotional feeling
I'm not having.

Seeing the blood
makes me feel human!

When I am totally alienated
from myself,
it is my ticket
back in.

For me,
the scars from a burn or cut,
are reminders of the incidents
that triggered the mutilation.

People think it's addicting
but it's not,
it's an addictive like behaviour.

The bottom line
is that I can choose to injure
or not...
It's all up to me!
© Copyright 1999 Echo Rhayne - All Rights Reserved
poetFemmeFatale
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since 07-25-99
Posts 2961
Arkansas


1 posted 09-22-1999 02:49 AM       View Profile for poetFemmeFatale   Email poetFemmeFatale   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for poetFemmeFatale

Very very interesting!! uummm....that's exactly what I said when I read it, but don't get me wrong, it's very good! Did you have trouble finding a title for it??? How about..." Cutting release " or " My cutting Calm".....??

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I beckon you to come...I lure you with my tongue... - poet FemmeFatale

Jay_Jay
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since 09-18-99
Posts 38
San Diego, CA. USA


2 posted 09-22-1999 03:15 AM       View Profile for Jay_Jay   Email Jay_Jay   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Jay_Jay

I think umm explains it very well, Echo. That is also what I said after reading it the first time. I was just speechless. It was excellent though, and I can actually understand why you do what you do, I don't condole it, but I understand it. I love you my darling cyber sis, and I love you, just please never do anything to end your life, I would greatly miss you and your wonderful poetry!

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Never allow life to get in the way of living...
Sean
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since 09-20-1999
Posts 17
Holtville, CA. USA


3 posted 09-22-1999 05:18 AM       View Profile for Sean   Email Sean   Edit/Delete Message     View IP for Sean

I must agree, umm is what I first said too lol. Jay is right though, Echo, you have allowed us to understand a little more. I am once again speechless after reading another of your poems! *huggles*
Echo Rhayne
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since 09-17-99
Posts 1538
Canyon Country, CA


4 posted 09-22-1999 11:08 AM       View Profile for Echo Rhayne   Email Echo Rhayne   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Echo Rhayne

I am always full of umm's that is why this was title umm...also because I didn't have anything else to title it. I like your suggestions though poetFemmeFatale, thanks! Jay...I love you too bro *hugs*
Sean...Huggles right back at you!
Thank you all for reading this =)
Iloveit
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since 09-02-99
Posts 1168
NM


5 posted 09-22-1999 12:15 PM       View Profile for Iloveit   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Iloveit

wow echo, somehow your poem makes me glad to know hurt and the tears that wash the slate clean, I used to shy from love, because of the pain, but would rather hurt than never feel anything....big hugs friend
Echo Rhayne
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since 09-17-99
Posts 1538
Canyon Country, CA


6 posted 09-22-1999 01:24 PM       View Profile for Echo Rhayne   Email Echo Rhayne   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Echo Rhayne

ILoveIt...I agree and *hugs back* thank you, I needed the hug =)
Justbleu
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since 08-31-99
Posts 3430
Oregon, Originally From Alaska


7 posted 09-23-1999 05:53 PM       View Profile for Justbleu   Email Justbleu   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Justbleu's Home Page   View IP for Justbleu

I'm speechless!!!

Sending you another *HUG* cuz, you said you needed it!!

Justbleu


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"It may take a boy to turn a girl's head, but it takes a man to turn a girl's heart"


WhtDove
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since 07-22-99
Posts 9561
Illinois


8 posted 09-23-1999 06:06 PM       View Profile for WhtDove   Email WhtDove   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit WhtDove's Home Page   View IP for WhtDove

I missed this the first time around. I am sorry I did! I can understand, I'm sorry you feel such anguish! Now I know that was not just a feeling, but something you tried to carry out. I hope you will find that you are worth more than you can ever comprehend! I hope you heal in spirit as well as physically. (((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))
Pepper
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since 08-19-99
Posts 3134
Southern Florida

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9 posted 09-23-1999 06:17 PM       View Profile for Pepper   Email Pepper   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Pepper

I missed this also....I hope Echo that soon you will be able to feel the abundance of love that surrounds you. My prayers are for your healthy return.......

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May your days be filled with lots of sunshine and your nights lit up by golden moonbeams
Isis
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since 09-06-99
Posts 6390
Sunny Queensland


10 posted 09-23-1999 06:21 PM       View Profile for Isis   Email Isis   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Isis's Home Page   View IP for Isis

Ditto on Pepper's words my friend, hope you come back happily to us soon..

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A hero is a man who does what he can.
~Isis~
(The Fragile Rose)


 
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