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Suicide (Fatal Solution) |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA 
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I never say I am frightened... I never say I am scared... I always live in terror... Of all the things I have feared... A sheltered life I live... Quietly locking away all the pain... I have nothing left to give... Silence is my name... I cry out-loud inside... Tears felt but not seen... Nothing left but to die... All that's felt is shame... As a child it bagan... The pain too deep... To understand... The routine pattern... Nothing ever changed... I realized the danger... My memory began fade... I blame myself for their actions... I blame myself for mypain... I blame myself for the destruction... That no one can ever change... An inside filled with emptiness... An outside made of steel... I always display happiness... But it I never feel... Too humiliated to tell anyone... Am too terrifed to fight back... It just happened attack after attack... How to end this charade... How to make it stop... My way of escape... Will take only one shot! |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Don't display the happiness, live it. Suicide is never the answer even if just a fleeting thought. I lost a neighbour to suicide and what it did to his family was terrible. I'll send you (HUGS) and remind you of the friends you have here And if I'm wrong it's just a poem you made up...forgive me but suicide worries me so.. ------------------ Words that enlighten the soul are more precious than jewels. ~Isis~ |
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Jay_Jay Junior Member
since 1999-09-18
Posts 38San Diego, CA. USA |
Echo...First off, you do not deserve the blame, it is not your fault! But suicide is not the answer...Don't allow death to take its toll on you. You have a wonderful gift to write poetry and writing the right stuff (like I have seen you write) you can help someone else who is going through the same thing! [This message has been edited by Jay_Jay (edited 09-24-1999).] |
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Paul Allen Lupien Member
since 1999-09-09
Posts 114Ferndale,Mi.USA |
Your best shot isn't with a gun but with the expression of your feelings.Talking them out to someone will make them clearer to you.Seeing them for what they truly are will lessen your fear of them.They seem so impossibly big ,I know,but fear is like a magnifying glass.It creates a false image.So does hating yourself create a false image.Don't believe either of them.You're not "bad" because you are in pain.Please make the effort because you're worth the effort.Find someone who merits your respect and let your feelings out.A therapist,a pastor,rabbi priest,teacher-whatever-you can find someone.Take that shot first.It's your best one. Paul ------------------ |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Thank you for your comments, concerns, help, etc. I do appreciate it all! |
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Sean Junior Member
since 1999-09-20
Posts 17Holtville, CA. USA |
I just found this poem on page 7. I must have passed it up when it was posted. I wish I hadn't!! |
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Poet deVine
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
A cry for help?..and we, not listening, failed to hear.....  |
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Alwye
Moderator
Member Elite
since 1999-06-16
Posts 3850In the space between moments |
Please, Echo Rhayne, realize that suicide is not the solution..although at times, it can indeed seem to be the only way out. But it isn't. There are always people out there to help you..and we are all here...::hugs:: Painful, exellently crafted work. ------------------ *Krista Knutson* Mockery is a form of ignorance; silence, a form of wisdom. -- Daniel L. Miller |
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Richard 33 Member
since 1999-09-09
Posts 187glen easton, wv usa |
I know that sometimes life is very unpleasant,sometimes it's down right rotten, but let me reasure you, and say that suicide is never the answer, and is not a solution for anyone!!! Before I was Diagnosed with manic depression, in 1992, my life was a mess I myself can remember feeling like death was my only means of escape, then I got help. I went to talk to someone, it was the best thing I ever did!!! I realized that as long as I wake up everyday alive, and keep on trying, there is always hope. Just remember once you pull that trigger all hope is gone, and everyone, or everything that has ever hurt you wins, and you lose, forever!!!! look over on page 2, and look up & read ( the struggle ) maybe it might help. |
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doreen peri Member Elite
since 1999-05-25
Posts 3812Virginia |
As I write this response, it seems your cry for help was serious and you have actually attempted suicide and are now in the hospital (from Jay_Jay's post which followed this). Although I don't know you personally, Echo, and have read only a couple of your poems, I can say that i have found kinship in your words.... they echo much of what I've felt in my life in the past. You have found friends in this forum who have something in common with you.... they use their written words, as you do, to communicate pain and feelings about life. Poets are very passionate people and the title of this forum suits us well. We are caring givers, who use words to relay our unique perspective on life.... a talent which you clearly share. Having said that, I will add that although I do not know you personally, i feel we are sisters. I pray that this attempt you have made and the subsequent help you will hopefully receive will result in your reviewing your life with new eyes.... and looking forward to the future with new hope, awareness, and truth. The truth is this (well one of them): for everyone, life is not easy. It is a struggle and there are days which the pain can seem unbearable. To some, it is even harder.... those of us who suffer from depression are those whose struggles are the deepest. We all must deal with the dichotomy of the human condition.... love vs. pain. The good news is, there is help. There are friends. There are medications to help balance your chemistry so that the days are brighter and the lows less low. Years ago, these medications did not exist. Today, we are privileged to have miracle drugs (yes MIRACLES) which can be used quite successfully. Also,the availability of therapy and counseling and the public honesty and awareness of depression is a wonderful asset to those of us who suffer with this disease. I don't know if you believe in God or about your faith. I am not trying to persuade you to believe anything that you don't. I just want to say that trusting in the Lord and seeking out spiritual guidance have helped me immensely in my own struggles with depression. I pray you are in good hands now and that the profesisonals who are helping you will give you the support you need. Rest assured that you have friends here. Your poem expresses the overwhelming fear and pain that, at the time, you thought could not be overcome. I will pray for you daily that you will be enlightened and realize that you don't *have* to live like this and that your pain and heartache can be managed. I will pray that you will find the strength you need in family, friends and God and that you will be spiritually filled with the peace you deserve. God bless you, Echo. With this note, I echo your struggle and join with you to tackle it and overcome it. Tomorrow WILL be a brighter day. But it will take some work from you to deal with the sorrow and pain straight on and to find and use all the resources you have available to you. If you ever need a friend, i would be pleased to call myself one of them. When you get home and have access to your computer again, please feel free to e-mail me. Your God-given talent for writing verse can be used to help others and to share the wisdom you have earned from this with the world. With hope for light, love, peace and a fulfilling future, my prayers are with you! -doreen |
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Toerag Member Ascendant
since 1999-07-29
Posts 5622Ala bam a |
Jay Jay/Echo........Are you two related? Live in the same household? I noticed your "IP" is the same? I hope all works out well... |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
I hope all works out well too! I have to agree with the above statements here. Your life is just to precious!!! There are so many here, who may not know you well, that care for you. You are worth the fight! We take on the blame for what others have done, and it really is not us. We need to find our self worth and know that though our problems can really bring us down, and seem like huge mountains, they can be worked through. I am sorry that we didn't take this seriously and try to help you before this happened. I hope that you can find some help, and know that we are here for you anytime you want to talk. Just an email away, or ICQ! God Bless you Echo! |
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