We all have losses in our lives,
Me too, I've had a few,
And today from within this poem,
I wish to share some with you.
I lost my biological mother for I was adopted,
The choices weren't hers to make,
I found her again at age 25,
A new family for lovings sake.
I've lost some friends over the years,
To death, anger or change,
These friendships usually ended in tears,
Leaving a void that is strange.
I've lost members of my family,
Due to accidents, old age or illness,
I wonder if they really knew me,
If they hear my thoughts, or feel my love in the stillness.
And jealousy has played a part in my life,
Sometimes I was jealous of so and so,
Wishing I could be more like them,
That my true self would show.
I lost a favourite uncle,
We shared secret's, laughter and fun,
I think of him often and hope that he knows,
At that time he was my number one.
I lost a man I loved for 18 years,
He gradually severed the ties,
He did this wisely,
For he knows I hate goodbyes.
He knew I couldn't live within his life,
A life of violence, crime and pain,
He saved me in a special way,
But my life will not be the same.
I loved another even more,
Our love was true and full of passion,
Every moment was a sweet torture,
A mutual decision to end it was the fashion.
Our love was so overwhelming,
Almost too much to endure,
We were wise enough to know it would not always be this way,
It was best to close the door.
I feel so inadequate,
Like no one knows the real me,
That perhaps my depth of emotion,
Destroy what could be.
I would just like to know that the precious few people in my life,
Understand the depths of my being,
See the real person I am,
And stay instead of just leaving.
I don't think I'll ever be fully understood,
Too few truly understand,
Too few know the depth of my all,
Too few wish to take my hand.
Am I alone in feeling this way?
Are my emotions wrong to assemble?
Cos the losses I've faced in this my life,
Have caused my soul to tremble.
Words that enlighten the soul are more precious than jewels.
[This message has been edited by Isis (edited 09-14-99).]