los banos, ca,
i remember your hands daddy,
they stole away my innocence,
without so much, as a second glance,
as the tears rolled down my face.
i remember your smile daddy,
it still haunts me in the night,
tearing apart the woman,
ive had to struggle to become.
i remember your criticism daddy,
every time i fell in love,
they were never good enough,
for "your" little girl.
i remember your eyes daddy,
the way they burned through my soul,
as you looked down upon me sleeping,
and i was dying inside, but to affriad to move.
i remember your lies daddy,
"you never ment to hurt me,"
"your sorry you made me cry,"
"you loved me more than life itself."
i remember my hands daddy,
they folded sweaty in my lap,
and i silently prayed to god,
not to let me hurt anymore.
i remember my smile daddy,
it faded away the first time,
you tore my world apart,
and i havent seen it since.
i remember my criticism daddy,
it was never ending upon myself,
for being the child i was,
for still loving you,
and convincing myself you didnt mean it.
i remember my eyes daddy,
they closed tightly,
and accompanied my wishes to dissapear,
to a place that wouldnt hurt me.
i remember my lies daddy,
"nothing happened mommy,"
"daddy loves us to much to hurt us,"
"im sorry mommy its my fault."
i remember her words daddy,
" this man is nice enough to love you, and accept you as his own,"
"the least you can do is be a good little girl,"
"mommy loves you, and ill never let him hurt you."
i remember it all daddy,
everytime i see you,
everytime you tell me that you love me,
you just choose to overlook my eyes,
that tell you,