Currently she's scared of herself. All she knows is the pressure of sadness banging against her skull. Maybe if it were to escape, her clarity would be less clouded. She's trapped inside her body with no way to get out. Stuck underneath skin that isn't hers. Peering out of eyes that she feels don't belong. She is unsure of how to save herself so she goes numb. Hopelessness leaves her stomach in knots. Emptiness engulfs her and leaves her with nothing but a sour taste in her mouth. She's trying her hardest to find an escape. So she'll prance freely through meadows hoping to find a piece of herself that actually belongs. Furiously searching for something that isn't there. She understands she won't find her answers here but a least it's a distraction.
We learn to distract but how is that going to help when we need to find our answers?