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Dear My Love (Letter 3)

Ketooaina
Junior Member

since 2007-04-20

Posts 37
Nucla, Colorado

0 posted 2008-09-09 08:12 PM

Dear my love,
     I did my best to please you. Everything that you have ever wanted I have done. It seems now that my 'best' was never good enough for you. I believe that somehow you are only able to see all that I am not what you would like or have me be. Because of this reason, I feel cheated. Cheated out of respect, self-worth, confidence. Cheated out of ability, kindness, patience. But the most important entity that I've been cheated out of is affection, tenderness, devotion, passion...ardor.
     When you left me for what you said was the last time, did you ever look behind to see if I was making it on my own? making my life without you by my side? Aren't you afraid of these broken pieces of this ruined relationship you'll find? You failed yourself, but I'm afraid that you failed me, too.
     You know...It's so easy to destroy and condemn the ones whom you don't know or who you believe are different. I want to know...Do you wonder if it is justified? Like I said...It's so easy to destroy and condemn the ones whom you believe to be different and the ones whom you can't understand. I'm curious to know...In your life, why did you not even try?
     At times now a days, I close my eyes and find myself walking that too thin line between love and hate for you...the person with my love flowing through your veins. Knowing this little bit of evidence, I curse myself for expecting you to love me in return.
     Whenever we are around each other, your eyes and your actions show me no regrets from all the things you said or did. You failed yourself, but I'm desperatly afraid that you failed me more.
     Destroy. Condemn. Destroy. Condemn. Destroy. Condemn. Doing to ones you don't understand or whom you think is different. Destroy. Condemn. Destroy. Condemn. Is that all you are capable of? Is there no kindness? Is there no love buried deep in that stone-cold heart of yours?
     That too thin line of love and hate becomes thinner every time I close my eyes. I look at the damage you've caused. I see myself marked with this deprivation, this...ravaging detriment. Seeing it...feeling it, makes it almost impossible to forgive you. I reach that peak, then I look back and see the infliction you've caused and I crash back down, not being able to forgive.
     You never looked back as you pushed me farther and farther away. Aren't you terrified of these asperous pieces you'll find of my heart? You failed yourself, but I'm afraid you hurt me in the process.
     I did my best to please you. But, it seems to me that my 'best' just wasn't enough for you. I feel as if somehow the only thing your capable of seeing is all that I'm not...all that I'm incapable of being in your eyes.
     It's all so very easy to destroy and to condemn the ones whom are different and the ones that you just can't understand.
     Do you ever wonder is what you have done is justified? Why didn't you ever even try?


                  Your Unwanted And Cheated,
                           Sweet Darling

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