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amusemi Senior Member
since 2001-12-08
Posts 1262A State of Disarray |
Dearest J, Yesterday, you asked me to betray a friend, and in essence asked me to choose. I cannot do this. All night I drove around trying to piece together all the parts and come up with a way to serve you both, but I don't have an answer. You were there in my darkest hour...when everyone else had abandonned me, even the person you asked me to betray, but how loyal must I be? You told me you didn't love me and probably never could, that there would be no commitment...and I stayed. Afraid of loneliness and fearing the pain of risk. You were a crutch, in the beginning. Now, I have grown to love you. I have become attached. Perhaps it is because you are all I have. I have shied from people because I didn't want to lie, and you seemed so upset when I spoke of us being together. What is it you hide? Am I so appalling to admit to? Is there someone else? Why do you ask this sacrifice of me? There are a million questions in my mind...and from you no definate answers. You simply say this is the way you are. That used to be good enough for me. I believed I was a better person for accepting you for who you are, that playing by your rules would prove that I was worthy...but do I really know you. Do I want to? I know what people think of me. Not many truly care. But, I am not what they think. I am hidden beneath betrayals like the one you ask of me, with agonies so deep I cannot be free. Where is right and wrong? A |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
I believe you already answered your own question in this sincere, contemplative piece. Many mirrors in this write of self exploration...often we learn the most about ourselves in the reflections of who we love, but more so why we love who we do... Your headed in the right direction...I read the proof of that in between your lines.  So nice to see you back in the blue amusemi take care jm I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Enjoyed...James |
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