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Martini
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since 2000-07-11

Posts 308
Toronto, Ontario, Canada

0 posted 2000-12-20 03:54 PM

**  This is a letter which I have written over and over again for someone very important in my life, and I can never seem to get it where I want it to be and I can never seem to get up the nerve to give it to him.  If you have any suggestions to how this can become perfect, please extend them, I would be eternally greatful**

  I find it absolutely amazing that one single event can change a persons life forever.  This happened to me the day I met you.  Before that day I was a totally different person than I am today, different hopes, different dreams, different outlooks on life.  Meeting you, hanging out with out, falling in love with you, even breaking up with you all changed my life.

  I wish someone could explain something to me, I wish someone could explain this ache I have at times when I think of you, it's like my mind keeps letting go but my heart is still holding on.  My mind can think of a million reasons why I am better off now but my heart can't think of one.

  I go through my daily life- and it has become so much easier than it was at first, and somedays i don't event think about you, or us, or what could have been, what I could have done differently.  but then there are the other days.  I love my life, don't get me wrong, I have very few things I can complain about, but the only thing I do have to complain about is my inablilty to forget.  I'm not saying I want to forget what we had, because I have a lot of great memories from us, but I would like to forget how much I felt, because it is getting me nowhere remembering those feelings, they are just holding me still.

  I don't know how you feel, I don't know if you even care, but I do know you have this unbelievable effect on me.  I hear your name and get butterflies in my stomach, when i walk in a room and you are there my knees go weak and my heart starts to race and I feel like I've lost all control - So explain to me how I am so stubborn and so individualistic and yet you managed to get so much power over me??!!

  A long time ago I got my heart broken and vowed to never fall like that and risk it happening again - then you came along and I forgot to be careful- I fell so hard for you it was like no matter how hard I tried I couldn't stop myseld and the feelings I had totally scared the crap out of me - and that's why I could be distant at times - everything meant so much.  And then my heart got broken and it's like it breaks over and over and over again everytime I see you, and yet not seeing you hurts just as much.

  I know it's time to move on, let go and just have the memories, but I don't know how to do that.

  You became one of the most important and favorite people in my life and it's hard to forget that.

[This message has been edited by Martini (edited 12-21-2000).]

raleighbttrfly
Member

since 2000-11-21

Posts 160
Raleigh NC

1 posted 2000-12-20 07:50 PM

Let me start by saying you did a grate job at geting your feelings out. I think that even tho it might be hard you relay should give this persont this letter, it ovisly means a lot to you. Give it to in away that he wont have to read it while you are around so that they have time to think it over befor they have to see you next. The letter is vary good i think it says al that you need to say. I only have 2 sugestions.

1: if you left anything out you should add it you may only get one chance to all of this

2: Give them the lettr saying what you need to say is the only way to be true to your self. Atlest thats what I think, but who am I to say.

p.s.
you said "me life" i think you meant my life.

I am not always lonely even if I am always alone

Martini
Member

since 2000-07-11

Posts 308
Toronto, Ontario, Canada

2 posted 2000-12-21 09:34 AM

Thanks so much for the reply

I let my best friend read the letter last ngiht, and she is always pushing me to just forget him and leave it all alone and even she thought that I should give him the letter

Your suggestions were a lot like hers. She said to walk up to him and say that I have something for him that I have been meaning to give to him for a long time and that I think he should read it... Then walk away.

Hopefully I'll get up the nerve to do this the next time I see him....

Thanks again, I will take your suggestions to heart.

"In three words I can sum up everything I learned about life: It Goes On"
~Robert Frost

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