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A Question of Betrayal

catalinamoon

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-06-03

Posts 9543
The Shores of Alone

0 posted 2000-10-26 02:02 PM

I have no idea if this appropriate to post here, but I'm sure someone will let me know..LOL

Betrayal, a feeling of such intense shock and pain. The realization that someone so valued, so loved, could easily turn his back. Go from open arms to a slammed door in the split second of happiness I was holding close. Why does betrayal still shock after 30 years of heartache? Shouldn't I be used to it somehow? Apparently I am not yet immune. I would never strive to be immune to love, but this pain I would gladly release. Is the answer to always love with the foreknowledge that forever will not happen, that the promises will not last? If that is faced ahead of time, will it dull the pain when it comes? I want to know how someone who is given nothing but love can stop loving. It's illogical. And the biggest quesstion..Why do I still love him, if he could do this to me? Why is love so hard to give up, even when for all purposes, there is nothing left to love? The heart has no boundaries of good sense, apparently. How do I fill my empty soul without love? I know all the theories, I know I have to find my own fulfillment, my own peace. Knowing it does not make it so. I fill myself with words, poems, letters. It helps. It's not enough. How does someone destined to be a lover, with every fiber of her being, learn to be ok without love? Any answers, anyone?

Christopher

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-02

Posts 8296
Purgatorial Incarceration

1 posted 2000-10-26 02:15 PM

Hi catalina - If you'd like, this might be more appropriate and recieve more attention in the feelings forum - let me know and I'll move it if you'd like.

Chris

Victoria

Member Ascendant

since 2000-08-12

Posts 5869

2 posted 2000-10-26 02:19 PM

I can feel your pain Sandra, you expressed it well, and I know where you are coming from..your turn for true love will come..be patient..you have alot to offer..i can tell..

~Victoria~

A poem is never finished, only abandoned.
- Paul Valery (1871-1945)

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