Women=Heartache

My sould was killed, by a girl.  My heart was killed, by a girl.  My heart told my soul one day you will be happy and you will love once again.  Someday it may be right.  I live a repetitive cycle.  And end up dead at the end.  It is destined to be that I can be hurt again.  These feelings have been felt before, and before those feelings got the best of me.  Dragging me down on bended knee, lashing down and torturing me.  It is how I am.  I can't turn my head.  I can't just forget the past.  From the past has brought pure hell.  And from every past moment, my past has leaked into my future.  I know now that love is very disguised, invisible to some, leading you into what seems an eternity of happiness, and then taking your whole exsistence, mind, body, soul and heart and with an emotionless swipe, my world is killed once again.  What I work so hard for, gone in mere time.  So I turn to you.  You know who I am, what i'm all about.  My love is like Deja Vu, ending all the same, leading all to the same demise.  I ask you to take my heart, place it beneath your soft and delicate wings, embrace it like it was your own, protect it and never let it slip away.  It just might not beat again.  They say face your fear.  My only fear?, the only thing that scares me to death......Is myself....Just thinking scares me.  Not truely aware of what may come of my life.  Scared of being alone.  I guess waiting so long just to know what love felt like.  Pitiful isn't it?  I am like a book, so eyecatching and looks towards me are felt of curious and wondering thoughts.  Everyone looks at the outside, disregarding the eyes.  Because they know what lies behind those eyes would scare them half to hell and back, not cable of withstanding my love.  Not able to love me as much as I want them to Love me.  Do you know how it feels to be afraid of something that you can't do anything about?  That you didn' ask for.  It's complete and pure EMPTINESS.  So I hope you have ventured inside and seen my hell, my love roller coaster, and I hope you continue the ride and I hope you don't get off and the next exit...