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DreamEvil Member Elite
since 1999-06-22
Posts 2396 |
What do I have to be thankful for? In case I cast aside the sarcasm, which is a defining characteristic of my persona, I feel the need to interject some of that very sarcasm here. First, I must say a piece on duality. One of Newton's laws of motion definitely applies, in two ways. "For every action there must be an equal and opposite reaction." Fair enough I think to say that applies to most any action. Having said that, I will go further and say that for every action there is both a positive and a negative reaction. Bear in mind that each reaction can also be seen as an action of its own that will generate more reactions. Like pebbles in a pool, even the ripples collide producing more intricate patterns. If the pebbles never stopped dropping, then the reactions and actions that follow would never stop. Assuming that perpetual motion is indeed impossible. Each person has an unlimited supply of pebbles and stones to cast. With each choice made and opinion given, every person is casting stones at someone. Each choice is a pebble or stone. The pool is life and society. The choices you make, the stones you cast have effects that ripple out and touch those around us. They will go ever outward clashing and meshing with the ripples created by the rest of the world. The farther you get from your pebble's point of impact, the smaller the effects become. Unless of course, you drop a boulder into the pool, then you make waves. I know I have digressed into the philosophical. It all ties together, I promise. Here comes the duality of reaction I spoke of. A friend that I was idiot enough to show some poetry from High School, 14 years ago, sent me to a site on the Net. There I discovered that my verse was indeed truly liked by some. That encouragement ignited failing fires of creativity. I started about 6 months ago with 23 poems from High School. In that time, I have since penned 370+ poems. I have done this without an inkling of how to type. I am prolific and somewhat talented. Ironically, it was that self-same talent and burning need to write that led to something of a downfall for me. Suffice it to say that I have a talent for horror that quite adroitly horrified the readers. Here's the rub; I feel the need to write, but no longer do I feel the desire to. I regained my talent for writing and learned of my wife's problems. Talent with verse led to one who restored my faith, my patience, and my hope. For that am I thankful. My wife has reached an uneasy truce with my writing, but I can no longer write. Am I thankful for Passions? Yes, to the entity and certain of the individuals. Others offend me by the fact they breathe the same air that I do. Even to them am I thankful. They provide contrast to an otherwise monochromatic life. My friends and peers provide me with the color in my world. To them I am doubly thankful. What else? I cannot say, "at least I have my health", nor can I say I am always thankful for my kids. I cannot say I am thankful to have been born, nor to have been given life. Both were unnecessarily cruel. I cannot say I am thankful for the lives I have touched, they fall to ruin beside me. As for the lives that touch me, most regret it and do not give thanks for more than my absence. About the only thing I can truly thank God for is the system in which we function. We get to die. We don't have to live forever. That is my only constant support; the knowledge that though pain is life, life is short. It is also my one constant regret; I will never live long enough to experience the joy and laughter others speak so highly of, all save one that is. I am not a Nihilist to go seeking my demise. However, when it comes, it will have to take me fighting for every last breath, just for spite. I am thankful for at last knowing and having both true friends and true love. It does seem that I am built of regret. I regret the loss of so many experiences. Perhaps friends might be thankful as that loss made me what I am, but I regret not having most of the experiences associated with growing up. You see once again the duality of reaction I spoke of. Many may think that one need merely think positive to not be depressed. That does not work with the clinically depressed or bi-polar. Again, I digress. I am thankful for a brief taste of the Light, but the Dark is more soothing. On that note, I will close out this challenge. ©1999 DreamEvil ------------------ Now and forever, my heart hears ~one voice~. DreamEvil© ------------------------------------------------------- "Either kill me or take me as I am, because I'll be damned if I ever change..." Count Donatien Alphonse Francois de Sade (Marquis de Sade) |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
An interesting self reflection Dream |
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Christopher
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-02
Posts 8296Purgatorial Incarceration |
I have to agree Scott.. I have to be thankful for the trials that made you you. I regret the absence of "normality" of childhood, but could never regret knowing you as you are now. You know I will never be one of those who is happy by your absence. You are one of my true friends, and as such I am thankful for you. And thankful for the words you write, however they were spawned. Even in the darkness of your reflection, I see your inner light. |
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dvlishimp Member
since 1999-08-01
Posts 126USA |
I do not know you. You do not know me. But, I wanted to thank you. The thing I have to thank you for is most precious to me and yet simple that many disregard it. I wanted you to know... Thank you for making me Think. You have made me see things from different perspectives. And I feel better for the knowledge of it. So, Thank you. |
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DreamEvil Member Elite
since 1999-06-22
Posts 2396 |
Thank you Hoot.  Christopher, I thought such would be your answer. Thank you for that. dvlishimp, you are more than welcome, but I must thank you as well. Making one think is the reason I write so you give me a high compliment indeed. Thank you for that dear Lady. ------------------ Now and forever, my heart hears ~one voice~. DreamEvil© ------------------------------------------------------- "Either kill me or take me as I am, because I'll be damned if I ever change..." Count Donatien Alphonse Francois de Sade (Marquis de Sade) |
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Poet deVine
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Well, this has been enlightening (though most of it I knew already). One point though, I admire you for sticking to this..the writing.. in the face of such adversity. I think I'd have slipped away. I am neither as strong or as talented as you. Thank you for posting this. |
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Jaguar Member
since 1999-11-27
Posts 51Quezon City, Philippines |
-Beauty is within you, let your spirit free. Kulay You have splattered my walls with colors of different hues searching where it all began with one sweep of your paint. |
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JennyLee Senior Member
since 1999-09-01
Posts 1461Northwestern, NJ. |
You always provoke deep thought from deep within myself...I am in debt to you forever for the mere fact of contemplation Jenny ------------------ Love is an attempt at penetrating another being,But it can only succeed if the surrender is mutual. |
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Marilyn Member Elite
since 1999-09-26
Posts 2621Ontario, Canada |
I thankyou for many things. I do not know you as intimatly as some but you have always been kind to me. You have guided me when I sought your help. You have always given encouragment. You have never failed in provoking thought as well as showing grace under pressure. I thankyou for being who you are. |
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Skyfyre Senior Member
since 1999-08-15
Posts 1906Sitting in Michael's Lap |
If I had to list the things I am thankful for, one of them would have to be your friendship. I wish you peace, my friend. --Kess You cannot choose the way of your death, but the path you choose will determine its own end. |
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