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Passions in Prose

Painful, Yearning Introspective

angelrocket
Junior Member

since 1999-11-15

Posts 12
Salt Lake City, Utah USA

0 posted 1999-11-15 01:46 AM

You have become my hero, the imagined giving lover of my waking and dreaming. It is wrong, but-it is so. Why? Why Do I feel this way?!! Am I unhappy with him-even tho he has long been my stability-my rock? Yes, I am! For as my husband, he is a taker with no thought for how I feel, what I desire, and wishes only that I feel and perform in concert with his taking. He is not unkind. But, limited and limiting, he takes. He is still my rock... I ANGUISH silently. In traversing the depths and heights of my feeling for You, I am WRONG, and wrong him. But, I am ecstatic knowing this feeling, walking next to You, knowing You...loving You.

Who are you anyway!? We share no realistic common ground except work. You are intelligent, possibly brilliant, outgoing, BOISTEROUS, well-liked; alone! Many are drawn to You. You are fatherly to Your friends in need and fiercely protective of Your little girl. Brotherly towards Your siblings and family, dutiful. Oh, I yearn completely for the You I see and feel.

Who am I? smitten of You, I am quietly intense, intelligent, a by-stander with a very full life. Mothering to mete out, a sister's listening ear to provide..as I have done for many years now, and will do for many years to come! I attempt-and succeed-in advancing my intelligence and standing in the eyes of those around us (pursuing interests technological)...and now, I have slipped into a deliciously burning, idle gear, I fear, encountering-You.

Christopher

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-02

Posts 8296
Purgatorial Incarceration

1 posted 1999-11-16 01:59 AM

Interesting questions...many of which I have asked myself...be careful however, (if this coems from your life) too much time on the questions can be self-defeating. Sometimes it is better to put aside the "whys" and to find the solutions!

Marilyn
Member Elite

since 1999-09-26

Posts 2621
Ontario, Canada

2 posted 1999-11-16 05:03 PM

I agree with Christopher. You have to advoid the whys and move on. In the question there is nothing but confusion and doubt. Live your life and hold fast to your morality. The answers will some in the living.

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