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Sunshine
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0 posted 1999-11-02 10:39 AM


Subject: The Room


Procrastinating as usual, 17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time
to write something for the Fellowship of Christian Athletes meeting. It
was his turn to lead the discussion. So he sat down and wrote. He showed
the essay titled "The Room" to his mother, Beth, before he headed out the
door.

"I wowed 'em," he later told his father Bruce. "it's a killer. It's the
bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote." It also was the last. Brian's
parents had forgotten about the essay when a cousin found it while
cleaning out the teenager's locker at Teays Valley High school. Brian
had been dead only hours, but his parents desperately wanted every piece
of his life near them-the crepe paper that had adorned his locker during
his senior football season, notes from classmates and teachers, his
homework.

Only two months before, he had handwritten the essay about encountering Jesus in a file room full of cards detailing every moment of the teen's life. But it was only after Brian's death that Beth and Bruce Moore realized that their son had described his view of heaven. "It makes such an impact that people want to share it. You feel like you are there," Mr. Moore said.

Brian Moore died May 27, 1997-the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

This was his essay...

THE ROOM

by Brian Keith Moore

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room.
There were no distinguishing features save for the one wall covered with
small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list
titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which
stretched from floor to ceiling and right to left as far as the eye could
see, had very different headings.

As I walked up to the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was
one that read, "People I Have Liked." I opened it and began flipping
through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then, without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my entire life.

The actions of my every moment, big and small, were written in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, mixed with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories, others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see
if anyone was watching. A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I Have Betrayed". The titles ranged from common, everyday things to the not-so-common-"Books I Have Read", "Lies I Have Told", "Comfort I Have Given", "Jokes I Have Laughed At". Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I Have Yelled At My Brothers And Sisters." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done In Anger", "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath At My Parents". I never ceased to be surprised by the contents Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I had hoped. I was overwhelmed by the
sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had time in my 17 years to write each of these thousands or millions of cards?

But each card confirmed the truth. Each card was written in my own handwriting. Each card was signed with my signature. When I pulled out the file marked "Songs I Have Listened To", I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after
two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented.

When I came to the file marked "Lustful Thoughts", I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think such a moment had been recorded. A feeling of humiliation and anger ran through my body. One thought dominated my mind: "No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!"

In an insane frenzy, I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took the file at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong
as steel when I tried to tear it. Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

That was when I saw it. The file bore "People I Have Shared The Gospel With". The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than 3 inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand. And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.

Then as I looked up through my tears, I saw Him enter the room. No, please, not Him. Not here. Anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. The few times I looked at His face I saw such sadness that it tore at my heart. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did he have to read every one? Finally, He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put his arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me. Then He got up and walked
back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file, and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. "No!" I shouted, rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no", as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written in blood.

He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished.". I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on the door.

There were still cards to be written.




© Copyright 1999 Karilea Rilling Jungel - All Rights Reserved
WhtDove
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1 posted 1999-11-02 10:50 AM


Sunshine this is one fantastic story. I don't know where it came from. It may have originated by him. I found this same story a while back on this web page if you'd like to go take a look at it...
http://surf.to/ChristianStories

Pepper
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2 posted 1999-11-02 11:14 AM


So very moving.....Thank you Sunshine for sharing this with us.....still have a big lump in my throat....

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Sunshine
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3 posted 1999-11-02 05:55 PM


Thanks again Whtdove, for reading, and to you too, Pepper, for letting me know how this struck you.

I find it uncommonly humbling.

Watcher666
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4 posted 1999-11-02 06:42 PM


Very heartfelt and moving.Thank-You for sharing this.

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Systematic Decay
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That place with padded walls and funny people in white.........
5 posted 1999-11-02 09:05 PM


Sunshine- you have even me humbled and shamed- and I don't even have a belief in God. Yes I'll admit it, a lump came to my throat, and I felt shocked when he started to sign the cards....this was so moving.......

One word: WOW!

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Denise
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6 posted 1999-11-02 09:23 PM


Sunshine, I am sitting here crying. What a powerful essay. Thank you for sharing this. That is exactly what He has done for us. I think this has been the most powerful portrayal of "It is finished" that I have ever come across. Again, thank you. *wiping tears*

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Christopher
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7 posted 1999-11-03 12:38 PM


I am humbled as well. I find that happens often when faced with words written from the heart. The story behind it only adds to the feeling. Definitely one that will stick.
Sunshine
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8 posted 1999-11-03 09:20 PM


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