A Day In The Life Of A Fifteen Year Old Housewife

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Systematic Decay
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since 1999-09-15

Posts 1301
That place with padded walls and funny people in white.........

0 posted 1999-10-04 02:44 PM

She opened her eyes. The clock across the room on top of the TV read either 9:05 or quarter till 1:00.....she was very nearsighted, so she couldn't tell. She groggily reached for her her glasses and put them on. After she rubbed the grains of sleep from her eyes she looked again at the clock. It was about 12:50. Time to get up.

She slowly rose from the bed, and avoiding the debris on the floor (clothes, CD cases, and other odds and ends) she made her way out of her boyfriends bedroom and to the bathroom across the hall. She splashed cold water on her face and brushed her teeth. Although nobody ever saw her, outside of the people who resided in this house, she still felt it necessary to keep clean. She stumbled down the stairs without bothering to change her clothes. What did it matter, shd didn't do anything to get them dirty anyway.

As she reached the bottom of the stairs, she saw that the house, although usually messy, was a disaster. As she went to inspect the kitchen she had cleaned only three days before, she stumbled over something. Looking down, she saw that the cat had left a ball of yarn, half unrolled, lying in the hallway, with the unrolled length thrown all about the furniture.

She returned to her listless, shuffling walk towards the kitchen, stopping first to gaze out the window. She hadn't even left the house for over a month. When she continued into the kitchen, she groaned at the sight of the huge pile of dishes. She didn't even venture down to the basement, in fear of what laundry disasters awaited her. She thought to herself, "I'll clean up later."

She then proceeded to the dining room, where the computer was kept. She switched it on, and while waiting for it to load, wondered what her boyfriend and friends were doing in school right now. A fleeting feeling, a terrible longing, passed through her, but she dismissed it as the desktop on the computer came on.

She signed on to the internet, and checked her Email, which contained no new messages. She then went to work on her homepage, but the page editor wouldn't load right. So she was off to Passions in Poetry. She goes there so much, she could access it on her favorites list with her eyes closed. She read a few pieces, posted a few replies, and then got a bite to eat. Left overs fron last night.

After she finished her belated breakfast, she sighed. "Just more dishes," she thought. "All this at the age of fifteen? And its all my fault. If only....." But no, she wouldn't let herself become entangled in all the "If only's." If she did, she would become even more depressed.

And now she sits in front of the computer, finishing a piece for Passions in Prose. Soon, she will do her housewifely chores, and recieve little or no thanks for it. And she will be awake till tomorrow morning, searching for her purpose in life through the world of the internet, since the real world is one she hasn't visited for quite awhile. Then she will sleep until about 1:00 and start the cycle al over again.

"Oh well," she sighs to herself. "I knew what I was in for." And she prays a silent prayer to a God she no longer knows if she believes in......a prayer that she might someday be happy.

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"Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage."
-Billy Corgan-

[This message has been edited by Systematic Decay (edited 10-04-1999).]

suicidal dreams
Member

since 1999-09-28

Posts 343
Toledo Ohio USA

1 posted 1999-10-04 07:27 PM

Nice work and some people outside of the house do see you! And its not your fault at all, hmm well ok maybe patially but u made the right choice, and if u want thx for all the work here Thank you for doing things.

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life is short kill quick

Christopher

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-02

Posts 8296
Purgatorial Incarceration

2 posted 1999-10-04 10:47 PM

A sad and moving commentary!
Here's a warm wish for you from me!

Dragoness
Senior Member

since 1999-08-07

Posts 513

3 posted 1999-10-05 08:47 AM

So young with so much responsiblity.* Hugs*

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Set you heart free and your mind will follow.

WhtDove
Member Rara Avis

since 1999-07-22

Posts 9245
Illinois

4 posted 1999-10-05 12:05 PM

From the stand point of a 33 yr old housewife and 3 kids, my dear you do have a choice. You have a choice to further your education, to build a career. You have many choices. It is left up to you to make your life happy. God gave you the tools it is up to you to pick them up and use them. I don't mean to sound harsh here, I for one don't go out often either. Though there is schooling in which when fall quater opens I believe I will enroll myself. Do not leave your happiness to someone else to fullfill, you will always be disappointed. Happiness is within the control of your own hands.

I feel like a hypocrite saying this to you. LOL... no hard feelings ok? I am very much what you describe here, lost in life, but everyonce in a while we need someone to kick us in the butt. Get us started and motivated. You are too young to be in such a stump girl. You have a whole, fulfilling life ahead of you, if you choose to make something out of it! Good luck to you!

Systematic Decay
Senior Member

since 1999-09-15

Posts 1301
That place with padded walls and funny people in white.........

5 posted 1999-10-05 03:06 PM

Thanks for the replies. WhtDove........I didn't take offense to what you said at all, although in my current situation your suggestions, while I plan on taking them up in a coulpe years, are of no good to me now. But I appreciate it all the same. Thanks

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"Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage."
-Billy Corgan-

WhtDove
Member Rara Avis

since 1999-07-22

Posts 9245
Illinois

6 posted 1999-10-06 08:31 PM

Thanks Hon! You just sound so stuck! I think I will email you! Thanks for not taking offense. I usually don't say things like this, it just came out. It had to!

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