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azblond Senior Member
since 1999-07-01
Posts 637The Steamy Desert 
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From my 'Letters Never Sent' Series... I remember a time when you were so important to me. I can recall days when I had to spend most of my time with you. I used to tell you things that I could never say out loud to another person. You were my sounding board, my ear to listen, my shoulder to cry on when I needed one. Most of all, you were my friend. I felt that when no one in the world understood me, you were still always there. Even if you didn’t agree, or even understand fully what it was I was feeling, you at least listened to me. With you I felt completely at ease to be who I was, to tell you the darkest secrets of my soul. You never judged, you always listened. You held me tight, and wiped my tears away. I read you poems that my heart had written. I sang silly songs, and did silly little dances in the rain. You teased me, but never looked down. You answered my calls, and made me feel as though I was never a bother. You came to see me just to make me smile. I remember one time I was sick, and you came to my house just to be sure I was okay. Do you know that you were the first person to ever do that for me? You listened to me whine when my heart was broken. You cheered me up when my first real boyfriend broke my heart. Remember that? He was your Best Friend, but you cheered me up. At that time, you became the second boy I ever kissed. But what we shared was so much more than that. We were beyond a couple stage even then. I was only 14, and you knew enough not to tie me down. Instead you were just my friend. I cannot believe all of the things we shared when we were young. You came through for me on so many occasions. When I look back at my life, I see you in so much of it. Mostly holding my hand when I was sad. Then there you are laughing with me when I felt like crying. I was young, and foolish with the dreams of a child. You showed me which ones were worth pursuing. Did I ever tell you how much I respected you? When times were tough, you never walked away. You found ways to make me laugh again. You are a big reason why I am who I am today. You showed me that life would be okay. As long as you have a friend. Yet now when I see you we just say a casual “Hello”. It is strained, at least for me. I remember so many times when you were all I had. When you were the one I looked forward to telling my secrets to. And now we just smile and walk away. How did this happen? Thirteen years have passed since you became my savior. And now we speak only by chance. Did I drown you with my needing you too much? Did I become too much for you? My fondest wish has always been that I could be for you what you were for me. I thought we shared a mutual relationship. Looking back even at the words I wrote, I can see it was a lot about me. Do you know you could have danced in the rain with me? I wanted to be equal, to be everything for you that you were for me. We went our separate ways, found our lives enriched with children, and lovers. But we stopped sharing. Why? I imagined us growing old together, not as a couple, but as friends. I just assumed we would always be together. Our partners would know and maybe even envy the special bond, but they would accept it, after all, it has always been there. What happened? I wish you would tell me. There is so much I want to share with you. So much had happened since we last talked. I want to know what has been happening in your life too. I want you to know I’m married, I’m happy, I’m in love. I have a beautiful life. But I still miss my friend; the one I told my secret longings to. The one who could see the stars in my eyes, and not laugh them away. Every time I see you I want to run after you and say, “I miss you”. Instead I stand and stare, and watch you walk away. Do you ever see me standing there? If you ever look back, you will see the sad look in my eyes. And if you ever get close enough, I will whisper again, “Come with me. Lets both dance in the rain.” ------------------ For sometimes when the Darkness falls, we must surrender, take what is ours, and give what we can, and always remember love is somewhere waiting... |
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Lost Dreamer Member Elite
since 1999-06-20
Posts 2464Somewhere near the Rainbow |
azblond, You did a wonderful job writing this, I could see the love you have for your friend in this story, and I hope you take the risk to get that friendship back again. Do whatever it takes, for friends are as special as our spouses, and children are. |
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leelew Member
since 1999-07-10
Posts 89highmount,ny,usa |
Az-find this friend and tell him what you feel.He probably feels the same.Don't wait until it's to late.Friends like this are one in a life time.Thank-You for sharing. |
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DreamEvil Member Elite
since 1999-06-22
Posts 2396 |
Wow! That sums it up for me, Az. ------------------ Shall I indulge in flights of fancy hampered by clipped wings? DreamEvil© |
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azblond Senior Member
since 1999-07-01
Posts 637The Steamy Desert |
Thank You all fro your replies. I wish I could see this friend, if only to give him a copy of this. But alas, our times of running into each other seem to have become few and far between. Still...maybe someday..... ------------------ For sometimes when the Darkness falls, we must surrender, take what is ours, and give what we can, and always remember love is somewhere waiting... |
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Lost Dreamer Member Elite
since 1999-06-20
Posts 2464Somewhere near the Rainbow |
azblond, Dont rely on running into him, do whatever it takes to find him, or his address, and send him this letter so he understands how much his friendship meant to you. Life is to short to just rely on a chance meeting, your friendship is much to important to let it slip even further away. |
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Alwye
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Member Elite
since 1999-06-16
Posts 3850In the space between moments |
Yes, I agree with Lost Dreamer, azblond. Find your friend, no matter what it takes. You'll regret it forever if you don't. Excellent piece, I could relate to many parts of it. ------------------ *Krista Knutson* "Your kiss upon my face feels like a brush with grace, baby thats all it takes to take me higher..." SHeDaisy |
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~one voice~ Senior Member
since 1999-07-08
Posts 664Billings, MT USA |
I agree with every one else sweety! You need to give this letter to him. Find him! Now, hurry!  ------------------ ~onevoice~ "She looked at her life like lines, never-ending, constantly forming, reforming and bending." |
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