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JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06
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South Louisiana

0 posted 2018-08-18 09:44 AM



I was up to here
with poetry and transgressions
but wasn’t in tune
with the real of my reality
not ready
to don my genuine identity
to the world
I was so close
the poetry made of me
something real
not like my fraudulent self
it scared me
I was pouring out the words
of life on the street
the women, the drink, the drugs
and in these poems
so very amateurish in the beginning
but they were how I was
it seems I was
discovering another Jerry
one I never knew was there
it scared me
slowly the poems became more organized
tried different styles
studied the craft
learned from some of the masters
my words, in many cases
were rude, crude and venomous
many times I wondered
where the words were coming from
but I knew
and it scared me
they were coming from old wounds
and scars
somehow I knew
it was imperative I write about them
the pressure was great
I was so full of poverty of the soul
it was a make or break time
I had to hold firm
and take hold of my inner demon
it was a bumpy ride
and it scared me
still . . .
I persevered
and my friends
through it all, through it all
I've written myself into
who I truly am

©January 29, 2017 / Jerry Pat Bolton

~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~

© Copyright 2018 Jerry Pat Bolton - All Rights Reserved
Lori Grosser Rhoden
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1 posted 2018-08-19 05:21 AM


I really like this poem. I'm sorry I missed your other two you deleted before I got a chance to read them. Grrrr! ~~L
JerryPat2
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Posts 16975
South Louisiana
2 posted 2018-08-19 01:13 PM


Thank you very much, Lori.

~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~

LeeJ
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since 2003-06-19
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3 posted 2018-08-21 02:30 PM


reminded me of me at one time...well written and from the soul....

JerryPat2
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South Louisiana
4 posted 2018-08-21 02:36 PM


Yeah, I'm sure a lot of people I can relate if they are honest. Thank you, Lee.

~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~

Poet In Pink
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Posts 1066
MI
5 posted 2018-09-06 02:57 AM


Your poems always speak to me Jerry...On many levels. You write from the soul and bare the truth even when it hurts. I think you are a wonderful person and writer. Thank you for sharing your heart words. Alana
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6 posted 2018-09-06 02:39 PM


Jerry...It takes a big man to face himself in the mirror and things that we do even if they are wrong and hurt the ones we love.
You have done that and I feel like at times I write about things in my life as sort of a confession I always feel better for it...Paul

~~To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you~~
Paul

jwesley
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since 2000-04-30
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Spring, Texas
7 posted 2018-09-07 11:26 PM


Personal retrospect works well for you - brings out your personality and the happenstance that brought you to who, and why your are.

Am enjoying you.

j.

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975
South Louisiana
8 posted 2018-11-11 03:16 PM


Yep, Jimmy writing, if we are honest, we write of our secret desires. It just works out that way frentquly with me. Appreciate your thoughts.

~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~

JerryPat2
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South Louisiana
9 posted 2018-11-11 03:33 PM


You always give me a smile, Alana. Thank you for each and every one.

~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~

JerryPat2
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Posts 16975
South Louisiana
10 posted 2018-11-11 03:36 PM


Yeah, I suppose I finally found my nich, Jimmy. And I thank you big time for your introspecting thoughts.

~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~

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