Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Rara Avis
Fair to middlin'
I headed into the Useless Saloon
and got wasted on endless shots
of useless thoughts.
I was tanked to the gills on guilt
and wicked smashed on worry and what if.
You could not have told me then,
I was out of my mind about nothing.
I was loaded on pain and pity.
They were so important at the time.
They gave me definition and purpose.
So I headed out feeling low as dirt.
Agitation arose and took over,
I grew bolder in my discontent.
I gravitated toward bad decisions
to make my point.
My points made a point of becoming bad habits.
Still the pointlessness of my mentality
had yet to dawn on me.
Things I couldnít change
didnít keep me from trying.
I felt helpless to change the things I could.
It was a crap shoot to tell the difference.
Needless to say my useless thoughts
got me nowhere I wanted to be.
Once I finally sobered up
A moment of clarity came to me.
Guilt wonít change the past
or improve the future.
Worry wonít change an outcome,
just make me lose my mind.
And what ifís are only good
for seeking solutions
and driving me mad with speculation.