Member Rara Avis
Texas . . .
Sometimes we seem to be tested far beyond any misdeeds for which we have to atone, my friend. I believe it must be Karmic in nature and we're paying dues on something from another "sometime". which is unfair I think - I mean, at least let me know what I did so wrong to deserve such punishment..
Then again, you could say we're paying forward, for another "sometime" yet to come. Either way . . . what did I do so rotten, it makes me disparage so.
I know your angst , know your pain through events of my own in the past few years, and all I can say is walk easy, hang in there, be stronger than "it" is, and don't let "it" beat you down.
All things turn, sooner or later, hopefully (tongue in cheek) before we die!
My heart . . .