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Panic |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere 
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Silly brain of mine has a way of what if-ing too much of the time. It gets on a roll then anxiety gets out of control. I get panicky and can’t make it quit. So here I sit. It just kills me the way it fills me. Like an earthquake in my skin, it’s more than I can take I want to give in and crawl in a hole deep and just sleep until it it’s done and gone. Sometimes a pill can help me chill, if I catch it early before it’s gone on too long. But more often than not I’m stuck in this shaky spot. Timid as a mouse, I don’t want to leave the house, or even my favorite chair. I have to be strong, like taking a dare, to act like nothing is wrong. I really hate it it is so hard to abate it. I feel foolish with emotions so unrulish. Knowing full well that this self-inflicted hell is all in my head. There is nothing real to dread. LGR©7/7/16 |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
I absolutely understand exactly where you are coming from. In other words, I relate big time. PANIC! Word for today . . . ~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~ |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
It has become a full blown monster since having to go around and promote my book. ARGGGGHHHH! It is crazy! I don't have a problem with reading my poems to a room full of people but ask me to go somewhere and see if they want to sell my book and I'm a mess. And it is not like I have had a negative experience in this endeavor. I am such a pain in my ass. ~L |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
I never liked book signings and trying to promote my books to perfect strangers. I understand where you are coming from. I'll be getting the book, but it will have to wait until next month now. I had to shell out $453.22 for a new starter yesterday. Gonna be a l-o-n-g month ~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~ |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
nice...so many things run through our heads...but when it comes to fear we need to be bold...james |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
James, finding out that prayer is more help than I realized it could be. ~L |
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