Open Poetry #49 |
Monsters in My Closet |
Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Had a talk just yesterday about how my past still cripples me today. I spent too many years keeping monsters at bay. Watching their countenance, always on alert for every nuance. Trying to keep the peace with the right things to say. Trying to keep the insanity from blowing it all away. The worse it got the harder I tried. So focused on fixing the unfixable, I nearly died. Now there is a legacy of self-denial that lives deep within me. I don’t speak up and simply have my say. I beat around the bush awhile and drop a hint or two. Being confrontational is something I just can’t seem to do. Being dissatisfied I try to hide and then just make do. My happiness is always conditional on things situational. My insides get contorted because my reality is distorted. It is unhealthy to be so compliant and hesitating. I no longer need to be so hyper vigilant. There is no disaster waiting. I no longer need these skills to cope. I can let go and grow. I have hope. Awareness is the key to being a happier and healthier me. LGR©3/31/16 |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Excellent poem, Lori. Talk to Winston about it. He will know exactly what to do. I can see from his gorgeous photo, that he is a very wise doggywog! |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Welcome to LIFE, my friend, and reality. Keep on walkin'. . . easy like!! j. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
fine writing...james |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Owl, thanks for commenting, Just to let you know I have already tried to take Winston's advice on life...Eat and spend the day on the couch. He lost 7 lbs and I gained 20+. LOL! ~L |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Jimmy, Oh Jeeze thanks for the welcome like I just arrived! I'm getting too old for this growing up stuff. I want to learn simpler things in my old age...like technology (arg) ~L |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Thanks James! ~L |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
I understand completely and thoroughly, Lori. You have, over the years managed to keep the beast at bay, almost destroying yourself as you did. But now! It is way past time to start giving Lori a break and ease up on yourself. I think you can do it. You can, ya know? ~ If they give you ruled paper, write sideways. ~ |
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Ari Squire Member Posts 488 In The Phallus Lane |
You begin with the troubling and end having come up with a solution. This is how to live. More feelings and fewer words please |
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