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Michael
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0 posted 2015-03-28 03:40 PM



And Now She’s Gone,


Now it’s too late, all chances gone
To somehow bridge a friendship lost.
That fifteen yearlong chasm drawn,
Stubbornness held at any cost.

I broke her heart so long ago,
I did not know that she loved me,
Till pain in her eyes came to show
As another drew unto me.

I closed the door on hope, on all;
Discomfited by hurts I’d set.
Ever willing to take the fall,
I cast her to the oubliette.

Still, I came to wonder at times,
If it could have went differently.
Now listen, as the cold wind chimes,
Writing these words she’ll never see.

Words unspoken, what good are they?
When inside, I still feel so cold,
When, if there was another way,
It died upon these lips, untold.


Michael Anderson

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JerryPat2
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1 posted 2015-03-28 05:44 PM


Not preaching Michael, but there is a life out there for you. I feel very bad that you cannot let all this go finally. Such negativity and beating yourself up. Wish there was something that would shake you out of it. I'll stop.

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2 posted 2015-03-28 07:18 PM


JP, this is about someone who once tried to love me long ago whose heart I broke.  She died recently, and I wrote this in reflection.  I have never written anything to or about this person on this site before.

Michael

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3 posted 2015-03-28 07:22 PM


Michael, I so get this. Because of lost opportunities, I no longer hold back. I read your poetry and think of you.  

Alison

PS - I know I should keep my thoughts to myself, but as readers of poems, we should set our assumptions aside. Just sayin'.

A

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4 posted 2015-03-28 08:35 PM


I'm sorry Michael, I seem to always get you wrong. Think I'll stop trying.
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5 posted 2015-03-28 08:54 PM


It wasn't an assumption, Alison, I thought I KNEW who he was writing about. I was wrong, but it is what I thought.

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6 posted 2015-03-28 09:08 PM


Jerry, I think we all make assumptions when we read poems on this site. Not all poems are about the poet or about present events.  I know there are times that my poems are from my imagination - sometimes they are about me.  I simply was remarking that we, as readers, may need to step back now and then.

I don't want to hijack Michael's thread any further - if we pursue this conversation, we might want to take it to another forum or email.. Goodnight, fellow poet.

A

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7 posted 2015-03-28 09:27 PM


"as readers, may need to step back now and then." You are right, I am stepping back.

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8 posted 2015-03-28 11:00 PM


Sorry Michael.

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Michael
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9 posted 2015-03-29 02:01 PM


Apology accepted, Jer.

Just for the record I did a search.  I have posted no poetry this year about Linda, and only did so on two occasions last year.  I was actually quite shocked that you would even assume some kind of hang up on my part.  I do use a lot of personification in my poetry... not every "her" I may mention will actually be a real person.  I often do this with things like Fate, or Misery in mind.

That being said, most everything I write has always been of a dark nature, stemming back to the very first time I picked up the pen.

I know you have my best interest in heart when you so earnestly are hoping and pushing for me to move past this, but this is something that is never gonna happen.  I cannot change who I am.  In the 1800's they would have tabbed me a "graveyard poet".  While the moniker may have a taboo feel to it, at least it was accepted.

I spent a good portion of my life trying to write things of a lighter nature, but in truth, we write what we feel more often than not.  I was writing dark poetry before I met Linda and while I was with her, and will continue to do so now.

It is who I am, Jer.


Michael

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10 posted 2015-04-04 09:52 PM


nice...james
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11 posted 2015-04-06 12:46 PM


Ha! Justification (and I'm saying this in a "light" vein as in LOL)!!

So many - Assumptions -  (purely human nature heart and soul led...)  are what led me several years ago to start tagging all my pieces with:

"Please don't assume everything I write is based on my personal life..."

Enjoyed your piece and all the dialog following . . .


j.

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12 posted 2015-04-17 01:09 PM


Regrets and wonderings... I love this! I know this from the other side... and have finally come to accept that love sometimes just IS, reciprocated or not.
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13 posted 2015-04-18 03:33 PM


Alison, thank you for your kind words and understanding.

JamesMichael, thank you.

jwesley, Indeed I am coming to see your use of those disclaimers as prudent.  

Ruth, truer words have never been spoken.

Michael

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