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jjote
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since 2002-12-25
Posts 1088
Ontario, Canada

0 posted 2015-03-07 01:22 PM


my granddaughter loved, or rather survived
slapping peanut butter all over her toast bread
for breakfast, midday before lunch, before dinner,
snacking PB on every edible medium -
biscuits, carrots, cucumbers, greens, etc.
(how weird the taste must be)
but if she could live on that
who am I to complain.

I was just concerned how she got Depression -
drifting in a pain-filled mental free fall
adults and doctors said this is a state of mind teenagers pass through
as if it is a tunnel they need to dig through
to find the light at its end.
Or be sucked down into a well of black,
forever staying in spectral darkness
if they don't.

I had gone away since, the last time I saw her
she was still inside the "have-to-pass-through" tunnel
coping with medicines, doctor visits, clinic confinements
while keeping up with school work.
I don't cease to wonder what miracle kept her
from jumping off her personal mental cliff
yet passed junior grades with high marks.

I see her now almost adjusted to university life.
It seems that after everything she's now out of the tunnel
guided by some unknown hand beckoning her
to the light at the exit way.

Who or what to blame for Depression -
some point a finger to the nature-nurture debate
or some "chemical imbalance in the brain"
treatable thank goodness, as long as
people don't put a stigma to it
(in my colossal ignorance, I ventured PB the culprit)

Coward that I am, I don't want to complicate my life
finding out the whys and hows of her existence -
I'm grateful just to see her smile with no effort
no longer balanced on a mental precipice.


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JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975
South Louisiana
1 posted 2015-03-07 01:45 PM


I was in that mental tunnel for many years, jjote, and mine lasted well into adulthood. I survived what I like to call my two lost decades and arrived at age forty seeing a tentative light which I eagerly accepted it. These days the tunnel has been banished, but I admit it returns every so often just to let me know it is still around. I'm happy your granddaughter has won her fight with that awful "D" word.

~*~ When they give you ruled paper write sideways. ~*~

jjote
Senior Member
since 2002-12-25
Posts 1088
Ontario, Canada
2 posted 2015-03-07 09:06 PM


I'm happy for you too, and I so hope my granddaughter will continue to find the strength to keep away from that mental tunnel.
JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
3 posted 2015-03-07 09:09 PM


nice...james
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