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Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

0 posted 2014-10-13 06:53 AM

Addicted to my affliction
Apparently
I like to party too often
with pity
and shoot sadness in my veins
My heart becomes numb
as I weep for emotions
that only live in my memory
I sell my waking wellness
for a pseudo death in sleep
My I will capsizes
into I can’t
while the conveyor
of life continues
bringing more things to me
I can’t handle
Stuff lined with anxiety
piles up at my lead feet
creating a quicksand of sad
to which I succumb
And all the while
never messing my makeup

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

1 posted 2014-10-13 07:01 AM

Hah! Got to be looking good even if everything around you is turning to . . . well, you know. Sure wish a strong ray of light would put your dark at ease.

If they give you ruled paper write sideways.

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

2 posted 2014-10-13 07:06 AM

Thanks my friend. I guess it is not so much dark as it is a damnable gray. The kind that gives you a chill...

Lori

Margherita
Member Seraphic

since 2003-02-08

Posts 22236
Eternity

3 posted 2014-10-13 05:48 PM

Oh my, dear Lori, this is powerful! I am sorry that you experience such emotions, it's good to share them in this excellent poetic form. We need a safety valve like this!!

I can relate. When things become overwhelming, one must learn to detach and to say some "No".

Love and hugs.
Margherita

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

4 posted 2014-10-13 07:23 PM

Margherita
Intellectually I know "this too shall pass" and God will bless my heart with sunshine.
Funny how you can ask the same question over and over in frustration. But ask that same question of God and He will show you an answer that has been right under your nose. For example, I've been struggling with choosing not to feel hurt. This little kitten has ripped a curtain and a lampshade and other things special to me and I just blew it off. Had that been someone else that damaged those things I would have been very angry and not afraid to say so! Eureka! I AM capable of choosing! I figured that out today and then found out the kitten gets to go home tomorrow. And that is what sustains my faith.

Feeling much better too
Lori

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