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JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06
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0 posted 2014-05-08 10:43 AM



our self-worth, i.e., our ego
can be a masochistically attractive
although humiliation is its ultimate
purpose
others see that in you
you refuse to accept adjustment
claiming it is uncultivated
as the black as midnight crows
call out forevermore
inside your mangled thoughts
where the sun is nevermore
shines only in sardonic remembrances
of the faceless women
each moment drawn into a
reconstructed myth
where you are the hero
the conquer
wearing the white hat
this is an ego appealing viewpoint
pulling fiction into our lives
eventually believing it ourselves
until, near the end
you receive such a violent tsunami
within yourself
pangs of guilt wash over you
like the actual waves of the tsunami
you are swamped
with the need to put all the lies
back together in their
nice little space
but no
what happened
happened
you have freed yourself
the creature has left
it will never return
you are free
I don’t feel free
I liked living with all my lies
let me return

no . . .
it will take time to adjust

©April 6, 2014 / Jerry Pat Bolton

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Lori Grosser Rhoden
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since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere
1 posted 2014-05-08 11:14 AM


Ain't that the truth "it will take time to adjust".  Even when you are making changes for the good, your loved ones will cringe at the "adjustment" and often unknowingly try to get you to change back to bad but familiar old ways. It is a tough nut to crack! (but worth it)

Lori

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975
South Louisiana
2 posted 2014-05-08 11:34 AM


WoW! What a comment, Lori. And every word of it is true. People close to us a lot of times had rather have us stay the same even when our "same" isn't in our best interest. New routines in ourselves cause alarm more than acceptance. Again, your comment was great!

~*~ Why do we drive on a parkway and park on a driveway? ~*~

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