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JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

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South Louisiana

0 posted 2012-05-02 10:30 AM

I haven't written about her in a long time. It is time.

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I meander through my remembrances
a guided tour to where I've been
in times past
these thoughts take me to peaks
I have scaled
and look down into the valleys of my life
turbulent rivers and
high seas hurricane-tossed
I weathered them all
looking back
when there was you and I
there was happiness
just being near you
touching you
mesmerized by your goodness
your beauty
still . . .
can't reminisce of those times
without sorrow setting in
when we were not together
when there was no longer an "us"
you put much more into
"us"
than did I
a fact much too late learned

Ah, these damnable thoughts
won't leave me alone
they persist in taking me where I'd just rather not go
snatches of our tête-à-tête
I am made completely aware that
I was not worthy of your love
you were the one
that tried
and tried again
and continued to try
while I—
played at life
the joker, Mr. Cool
too much joker, too much Mr. Cool
it destroyed
the most precious thing
even as you were reaching out for the man
the joker, Mr. Cool
was making you cry

©April 16, 2012 / Jerry Pat Bolton

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Lori Grosser Rhoden
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since 2009-10-10

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1 posted 2012-05-02 10:42 AM

wrenching retrospect. It takes quite a man to claim/proclaim his mistakes. I'm glad you have come to terms with the past my friend.

Lori

JerryPat2
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South Louisiana

2 posted 2012-05-02 10:44 AM

Ah, thank you, Lori. Claiming and proclaiming my mistakes is too little, too late, but it is the only thing that allows me inner peace.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Startime1955
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since 2012-04-22

Posts 1072
Alberta, Canada

3 posted 2012-05-02 11:11 AM

A wonderfu write about mistakes from the past...It is so sad that sometimes we realize the mistakes too late...*HUGS*

JerryPat2
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South Louisiana

4 posted 2012-05-02 11:13 AM

Yes, it is sad. I'd give anything to right it, but she died not knowing that.

Thank you, Karen, for your kindness.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Startime1955
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since 2012-04-22

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Alberta, Canada

5 posted 2012-05-02 11:15 AM

How very sad that she never knew it...*HUGS*

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

6 posted 2012-05-02 11:17 AM

Yes. She died eight years before me and our children reunited.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

luminosity
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since 2005-11-18

Posts 813

7 posted 2012-05-02 02:10 PM

good writing...leaves one thinking...sigh

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

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South Louisiana

8 posted 2012-05-02 02:17 PM

Yeah, I guess it does leave one thinking, luminosity, bad, sad thoughts. Thank you for being here.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

ethome
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since 2000-05-14

Posts 11858
New Brunswick Canada

9 posted 2012-05-02 04:42 PM

Raw but poetic and truthful.

Many thought the musical comedy 'No No Nanette' was financed by the sale of Babe Ruth by the Boston Red Sox to The New York Yankees which was called the "curse of the bambino" because Boston never won a world series title for decades after the sale.

Don't ask me why I included that in this comment.........Maybe I could see Jerry saying no no Nanette I really do care.

Just weird ol me Jerry.

Good write brother all the same.....smile.....

Eric

true love never looks after it's own interests

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

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South Louisiana

10 posted 2012-05-02 05:56 PM

Hi Eric, and thank you for stopping by. Haha! That was nonsensical funny about the Babe and Boston. What a trade, eh?

And yes, much, much too late, I did scream No! No! Nanette!

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Eloise
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since 1999-11-27

Posts 1096
Wyoming

11 posted 2012-05-02 06:23 PM

Wonderful and heartfelt write. Sorry for your loss on both levels. Glad to hear you were able to reunite with your children though. And... she knows and is probably smiling down on you.

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

12 posted 2012-05-02 06:48 PM

I can only hope she is smiling, Eloise, that would finally rest my aching heart. Thank you very much for your kindness.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

ebonygirl
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since 2011-07-14

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California U.S.A

13 posted 2012-05-03 08:28 AM

A heartfelt poem, JP. Trying to make things right is always a good thing. Ms. E

JerryPat2
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Posts 16975
South Louisiana

14 posted 2012-05-03 09:41 AM

Thanks, Ms. E, it was too late for her, but she stays in my thoughts.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

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Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

15 posted 2012-05-12 04:06 AM

Fine writing...James

JerryPat2
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South Louisiana

16 posted 2012-05-12 07:08 AM

Thank you James...Jerry

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Marchmadness
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since 2007-09-16

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So. El Monte, California

17 posted 2012-05-12 10:59 PM

Who knows, Maybe our thoughts are as eternbal as the soul, Jerry and she knows how you feel even now.
Ida

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

18 posted 2012-05-13 08:03 AM

Would that be so, Ida, it would greatly please me. Thank you for putting the thought in my head.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

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