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JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

0 posted 2012-03-19 06:08 AM

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in the aftermath of my life's history
I venture back into the asphalt
roads of my past
I find myself taking even old dirt roads
between sanctity
and lunacy
never figuring out middle ground
I drug mountains of paranoia behind me
as I walked the same roads
in the bad old days . . . decades
sometimes stumbling into the woods
where a creek ran through it
sitting there
gathering up what resolve
I needed to rise and keep going on
could see no end
except one, of course
a lonely man on a lonely mission
fought heraldic battles
with himself
to rise and continue
I always rose
leaving shadowy ghosts in my wake
pursuing new conquests
new shadowy ghosts
to add to those already there
faceless for the most part
still . . .
it was like being addicted to
crack
I couldn't, wouldn't stop
for if I did
I would have to look at myself
and find truth
but . . .
I was incapable of looking truth in the face
until many, many
years later

©March 15, 2012 / Jerry Pat Bolton

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

katahdin
Senior Member

since 2010-07-01

Posts 1196
ME. In the Shadow of the Mt.

1 posted 2012-03-19 06:29 AM

Wow great write! enjoyed! Love the picture.
Kat >^..^<

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

2 posted 2012-03-19 06:46 AM

Appreciate the kind remarks, Kat, thank you.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

3 posted 2012-03-19 03:50 PM

I was incapable of looking truth in the face
until many, many
years later

It often takes those years... but we need to give ourselves... and others... whatever time it takes. And it's different for each of us.

I'm glad you're now in a good place... and enjoyed the look back!

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

4 posted 2012-03-19 03:57 PM

Appreciate it, suthern, I am glad I am in that good place also. Thanks for stopping by.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

5 posted 2012-03-22 12:58 PM

Some people are forever lost for many different reasons, Jerry. I'm glad you're in a better place.
Ida

2islander2
Member Ascendant

since 2008-03-12

Posts 6825
by the sea

6 posted 2012-03-22 05:03 AM

helo jery, it tales en entire life to know oneself, thanks for the precious and touching poem, enjoyed a lot,

yann

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

7 posted 2012-03-22 05:57 AM

Ida, Thank you very much, and I am happy I am where I am also.

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It took me long enough, yann, but I am grateful I lived to see it. Thanks for the nice comment.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

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