When You Pray Is There A God For Me? (a repost)

How to Join	Member's Area	Private Library	Search	Sanctuary		Login
Main Forums	Discussion	Tech Talk	Mature Content	Archives	A home without a wall, Our haven without ends, A circle we all call Our Family of Friends!

icebox
Member Elite

since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

0 posted 2010-09-09 01:00 PM

On these high holy days,
you mention casually
with mocking cynic’s lightest touch,
when you embrace them,
the Books of Life,
the structure they provide,
when you may cast off my memory’s pebble
in rolling sound pools of shofar,
warm and fluid cleansing of soul,
the chicken soup of life,

should you atone for me?
For shared frivolities,
dalliances of life and love
hopeless dreams,
hopeful fantasies
precious few realities,
those too were times of joy;
when I am gone

do you atone for me?
Come out
come out
and play,
I make you beg;
when I am lost,
so far
down inside myself
I hear only echoes of empty worlds,
bedazzled and bemused
beyond the veils of time,

will you atone for me?
Your guilt is constant
soft and deep
nurturing while keeping you secure,
it moves you firmly like a wave
holds you gently in its curl,
sometimes
with its tide you can swim comfortably,
against it you would drown;
mine is full of vacillating high cold dusty winds
that I ignore
choosing to believe they're just treetop whispers
in a harmless summer breeze;
I live quietly,
in mindless empty forests of the self-deceived
with arrogance and fear balanced on a point of intellect
until some whimsy
or my spirit
draws me too far from the ground,
then,
when I'm ripped by ferocity
choked and pitted by debris,
spun in circles
a toy out of control,
tossed in crazy patterns by howling gothic winds,

do you atone for me?
When I no longer think intentionally,
when I see only dreams
chasing me through sleep
needlessly
reminding me of lives and loves and lies,
debts I can't forget,
when I only hear wind
and see faces in its folds,

can you atone for me?

©2003, 2008, 2010 by icebox

latearrival
Member Ascendant

since 2003-03-21

Posts 5499
Florida

1 posted 2010-09-09 07:59 PM

Who am I to atone for any one other than myself. And even then I doubt it would do much good. Am I God? No, so I do not pretend that I can be a "sin eater" or offer hope to any, not even myself. Live as we have lived and leave it up to whomever... latearrival

jwesley
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-04-30

Posts 7563
Spring, Texas

2 posted 2010-09-09 09:09 PM

If you believe in the WORD, yes He does…
If you’re on the brink - according to the WORD, yes, He does…
If you’re off in space, looking the void in the eye, it’s an empty place ---
only you can fill it.

loved the write both times I've seen it...

jimmy

serenity blaze
Member Empyrean

since 2000-02-02

Posts 27738

3 posted 2010-09-09 10:57 PM

If there isn't I think we should create one in your image. I can't think of a better look for a God, m'self.

I love you C.

I simply do.

Please be well.

Novus_Os
Member

since 2010-07-21

Posts 115
West Coast, USA

4 posted 2010-09-10 02:08 AM

I hear only echoes of empty worlds,
bedazzled and bemused
beyond the veils of time,

I can sense a greatness here. Thank you for your sharing. I appreciate it very much, and very timely, I might add. Keep going. One more thing,
reading this, I am humbled.

Regards,

Novus_Os

Life is meant to be enjoyed, not just endured.

Margherita
Member Seraphic

since 2003-02-08

Posts 22236
Eternity

5 posted 2010-09-11 04:45 PM

quote:
I live quietly,
in mindless empty forests of the self-deceived
with arrogance and fear balanced on a point of intellect

Is there need for atonement, when there is Love that wraps you in its embrace just the way you are?

You always offer depth and poetic beauty.

Love,
Margherita

	⇧ top of page ⇧
All times are ET (US). All dates are in Year-Month-Day format.