We Aren't Ever Going Home (last repost in memoriam)

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icebox
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since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

0 posted 2010-06-01 07:15 AM

It is cold here in an endless night,
easy to forget
a jungle is a desert with too much rain,
lonely now
too much awareness
from inner plains of memory,
too little pain for all that happened,
it could be said it should hurt more
to be dead so far from home;

fear too is cold,
and in passing from all needs of life
I thought we would leave fear,
crushing weight of knowing
we weren't leaving here in any way that could be understood;

quiet now,
not like endless tearing moments of fire and steel,
I remember
how what I thought was real became a child's dream;

running,
thinking I could hide anywhere inside this shadowed valley
where we died as we were busy killing for no reason
but for rage at being killed,
at least no reason that survived;

we are waiting,
friends and enemies,
each quiet with our own separate agenda,
some around me I have recognized across what must be years
since jungle has returned,
and there are trees where I once stood
on blasted ruined ground
mixed out of ashes,
mud,
debris and blood,
shadow memories of fire's
licking tongues without heat,
soft recall of madness
in this waking dream through which I pass
awaiting understanding that may take me out of here,
at last;

cold,
so very cold,
sun's heat passes through me without stopping.

I believe
one day I will leave behind this place of green horror
forgotten honor fertilized with death,
where nothing was resolved,
nothing lasting was attained,
where our blood is slowly washed away
every time it rains.

©2004, 2010 by icebox

Margherita
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since 2003-02-08

Posts 22236
Eternity

1 posted 2010-06-01 08:18 AM

Goodness gracious, dear Charly, this is a masterpiece. Every line so powerful, that it can't be forgotten.

Incredible what you went through and how you shared it.

Love and peace.
Margherita

Amaryllis
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since 2010-05-20

Posts 1306
Mi now

2 posted 2010-06-01 10:13 AM

Oh this is wrenching.. just perfectly portrayed, what writing.. what pain.. I want to thank you for your service, for all service men and women.. though words of gratitude can hardly be enough. Also thank you for all of your re-posts; I am new here and have been following along.. hesitant to speak up since am so new/unknown. But this is a masterpiece and I just had to comment.
May you have peace, and warmth at last.
~Amaryllis

Andrew Scott
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since 1999-06-24

Posts 2558
Redlands,CA,USA

3 posted 2010-06-01 10:49 PM

Once again, a very powerful piece with the truth of having been there. I bow to you and yours... with gratitude for your service.

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

4 posted 2010-06-02 03:13 AM

This poem is as unforgetable as the experience seems to have been. Peace to you, Charley.
Ida

easy1
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since 2010-05-22

Posts 1209
Southeastern USA

5 posted 2010-06-23 07:50 AM

This deserves another bump. Being shot at and then spat upon unjustly is no treat.

Great write.

Eldest
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since 2010-06-15

Posts 177
Alabama

6 posted 2010-06-23 09:46 AM

"forgotten honor fertilized with death"
What an incredible line, so eloquent. I have no other words.

bel1e
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since 2006-07-24

Posts 1631

7 posted 2010-06-23 05:24 PM

deep & sobering~~icebox

~enjoyed the journey~

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