Hollow longing,
served only by lack of persistence.
Unachievable, my happiness;
so vividly unclear.


Want and desire contrary to genuine need,
pursued without effort exceeding cerebral means.


Confused assurance of self-owned ailments
precede an unused, only assumed cure.


Assertive desire to alleviate my thoughts.
Taunting and mocking,
they chase me, they trip me, they tie me to myself.


I'm irrational, I make sense.
I am found in being lost;
I barely get by.


A life coasts before me
as I cruise control my mind.


False self-worth,
false self-confidence,
falsely self-assured.
False self.


Accusations of my own ghosts,
haunting hypocritical words,
spoken of a jealous tongue.


I run, I can’t hide.
Attempted distraction only haunts my mind.
Assess, diagnose; internalize, fear.


Fear loss of my excuses as actions demand me.
Consequences deemed unbearable;
reality, unfathomed.


A destiny seemingly uncertain
in the mythical hands of joy.
Defeated, feast my comfort food,
default to my soul's misuse.


Forgive me? Too kind.
Undeserved; unexpected.


Excuses, my glue,
barely hold together the most broken of souls.
I am broken.