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Chalmette Guy
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0 posted 2010-03-04 11:30 AM


This all means nothing
And nothing is real
I can’t help myself

This is how I feel

Most of the time
I’m like some kind of ghost
And sometimes I take pleasure
In things that hurt me most
And sometimes I feel I’m drowning
Choking on bitter tears
Or clawing at the one thing
Ringing in my ears
I’ll take anything I can
Time never seems to heal
The pain, this wounding pain

This is how I feel

They still keep taunting me
Numb my hurting head
I’m lost and all alone
And given up for dead
Sometimes I can protect myself
Until the embracing dawn
Or lose control
From the one thing hanging on
You can paint me in a corner
Lock me up, throw away the key
You still just don’t get it

This is how I feel

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passing shadows
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1 posted 2010-03-04 12:02 PM


I do get it

been there, done it, felt that way

and it might be coming back again

Chalmette Guy
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2 posted 2010-03-04 12:06 PM


I know what you mean too...wait, I wrote this. lol

It came back here.

Thanks Dixie.

Margherita
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3 posted 2010-03-05 06:46 AM


I know such feelings too, but at the same time I never forget that life treats me well when I trust. And I always know that I am not alone and that everything can be seen in a different way.

Your expressions are very powerful.

Love,
Margherita

Klassy Lassy
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4 posted 2010-03-05 10:58 AM


I hope you feel better soon.  This makes my head hurt, too...  You know, when we carry around such negative thoughts, it's like having a thief in the house--one that lies, cheats, steals peace of mind and happiness.  I do understand that sort of robbery, having done battle, too, and feeling victimized by depression at times. I know what it takes to throw the interloper out.  The thing is we WOULD bar the door against a thief and we would defend ourselves.  

It also takes mental and physical work to send darkness packing and to hold onto the good, but it's worth it and I know you are, too!   KL


Chalmette Guy
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5 posted 2010-03-05 11:04 AM


Hey KL...thank you so much for that, its really not that bad, I am a fairly happy person.
But, fairly is all relative. lol


Sunshine
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6 posted 2010-03-05 11:13 AM


Oh, those innermost questions
with nary an answer.

But you also made me think of myself,
and how the ringing in my ears
is only something I can hear...
and no one else might know the pain of it.

So, food for thought on several levels.

Well done, m'friend.


Chalmette Guy
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7 posted 2010-03-05 11:15 AM


Sunshine...as always....it is all my pleasure for you to read me.
Thanks.

Klassy Lassy
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8 posted 2010-03-05 02:36 PM


For me, reading poetry is sometimes like getting too close to a porcupine. It pierces my heart with jagged quills if I'm not careful--sometimes in a good way, sometimes quite painfully.  

You compose it in such a way that I feel all the arrows, the tears and the smiles...a mark of a very adept author.  Keep that happy heart, ok? ~K

[This message has been edited by Klassy Lassy (03-05-2010 03:55 PM).]

Chalmette Guy
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9 posted 2010-03-05 02:40 PM


Getting too close to a porcupine...I like that. Very apt.

They look so cute, but can also be so painful to touch.

You are awesome KL.

viking_metal
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10 posted 2010-03-05 04:09 PM


This is perfect.

The ending was wonderful.


One of your best, CG.


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Fall in love early, fall in love often.

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