Damian (1/19/1978 - 11/18/1997)

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MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

0 posted 2011-11-17 09:08 PM

There are time when I think I see you
   Walking down the street
   Standing in a doorway
As if no time had passed

There's never a time that I don't think you should be here
   To make me laugh when I'm crying
   To stand up when I can't
To hold my hand when I'm scared

In fact, you should be here now
   Because I'm not ready
   ...and will be never be...
   For you to not come back again

Because if you're, if you're really gone,
   Then there's a whole in my heart
   ...in in my life...
   That no one else can ever fill

And then are times, when it's almost like I dreamed it all
   You and I as children
   You and I as teens
Me, alone at your grave site

There people all around, telling me to come away now
   ....trying to get me to leave you there...
   Like you wouldn't have left me
In the cold
And in the dark
All alone

At times, it's almost as if these are someone else's memories
   Someone else's tears
   Someone else's pain
Someone else's reason to grieve

Sometimes, it feels like it isn't true
   Because no matter the years that pass
   A part of me still cannot believe
That you won't be coming back

But no matter the glimpses I catch, or the way I wish it otherwise
   No amount of dreaming
   No amount of time
   And no amount of tears spent
Can give me back what's been taken

But there are still times
   when I don't believe it,
   ....when I can't....

Because you should be here
With me

"I'll tell you how the sun rose
A ribbon at a time..." - Emily Dickinson

[This message has been edited by MorningStar (11-18-2011 12:59 PM).]

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

1 posted 2011-11-18 11:45 AM

Sometimes, it feels like it isn't true
Because no matter the years that pass
A part of me still cannot believe
That you won't be coming back

This reaches right down into my heart and breaks it... I am so sorry for your loss.

Anniversaries always make the pain sharp and new again, don't they?

Margherita
Member Seraphic

since 2003-02-08

Posts 22236
Eternity

2 posted 2011-11-20 06:22 AM

Beautifully poignant write, dear Aenea, in loving memory of Damian, whose transition indeed seems so very untimely.

Hugs.
Margherita

Earth Angel
Member Empyrean

since 2002-08-27

Posts 40215
Realms of Light

3 posted 2011-11-20 01:37 PM

Your pain and anguish are so vividly expressed that I could feel it in my heart. Sometimes the loss of a loved one is too heavy a burden to carry and we tend to dissociate from the reality of it.

May God bless you and give you strength,
EA

MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

4 posted 2011-11-21 09:42 AM

Thank you all very much.

"I'll tell you how the sun rose
A ribbon at a time..." - Emily Dickinson

latearrival
Member Ascendant

since 2003-03-21

Posts 5499
Florida

5 posted 2011-11-21 02:50 PM

But he is still there or you would not have been able to write this. You keep him with you with every thought.Lovely writing.jo

Alison

Member Rara Avis

since 2008-01-27

Posts 9318
Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy!

6 posted 2011-11-22 12:01 PM

Aenea,

I felt like you were writing about my brother. I 'got" this poem - every word and every emotion.

Thank you.
Alison

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