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pen&paper
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0 posted 2011-11-05 12:26 PM



I want to write about love
Being in love
But I write from current experience
And that would mean that I would have to be vulnerable
That I would have to put my heart on the line
I don’t know if I can do that
Again

They say “Third time’s the charm.”
But is that really true?
I don’t believe in magic
I doubt miracles
And you expect me to believe in love
Which is but a combination of the two?
I don’t know if I can do that
Again

“They’re telling me it’s beautiful. I believe them but will I ever know…?”
I don’t know that I have the courage or the will
To put myself, my heart, my soul, my pride
In a place where all could be destroyed
I don’t believe in love at first sight
I find the notion…far-fetched to say the least
I doubt true love
I want to believe in love but
I don’t know if I can do that
Again

I believe in faith
I believe in hope
I believe in the general goodness of mankind
But I don’t trust mankind with my heart
It’s too fragile…far too easily broken or wounded
To write of Love…would mean that I would have to love and
I don’t know if I can do that
Again

© Copyright 2011 Cierra L. Robbeloth - All Rights Reserved
OwlSA
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since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347
Durban, South Africa
1 posted 2011-11-05 03:33 AM


Cierra, I know you can.  You have every single ingredient necessary, listed in this poem, to be able to do do that - and to need to do that - and to rejoice in doing that.

I am 66 (yesterday) and through these years, I have learnt from experience (sadly and yet ecstatically) never to believe that one is immune to love and to being loved.  

Your (and I don't mean "one's" - I mean Cierra's) heart's fragility is its very strength.  It may break a million times more, but it will always heal - in Blue Eyes' words - enough to "pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again" though it may take a long, painful and difficult time each time.  Take the words of an old bag (me), it is worth it.  If you give away your heart and your soul - but paradoxically, don't let anyone TAKE them away from you, your heart and soul will always mend.  Cierra's heart and soul are as resilient and strong as they are fragile.  The more of your heart and soul you give without expecting reward, the more you will receive in return.  

The test is to ask yourself if you regret falling in love with anyone you fell in love with.  I am sure, on careful consideration, despite any adversities, you will not be able to regret any time ever.  The joy is worth the pain.  

If you ask yourself whether you would rather not have known any loved person or animal you have lost to death, you will find that you don't.  That is not the same thing, but my thoughts went there.

I am sorry for your current pain.

Healing hugs
Owl

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975
South Louisiana
2 posted 2011-11-05 11:54 AM


Much to much self analyzing, my friend. Take life and what it sends your way. It will come. Sometimes we either self analyze ourselves too much about it and become hermit-like or smile, greet what comes with energy  and expectations of good.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways ~*~

pen&paper
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Posts 513

3 posted 2011-11-05 03:40 PM


Thank you both. Your kind words mean a lot to me.
I hope to be more cautious than fearful and maybe in time excited for my future.

pen&paper
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4 posted 2011-11-05 03:53 PM


Happy Birthday, Owl.
OwlSA
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Durban, South Africa
5 posted 2011-11-06 09:15 AM


Oh, you sweetie!  Thank you, Cierra!

Owl

Marchmadness
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since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California
6 posted 2011-11-06 12:26 PM


I think this tells it like it is and shows a great deal of writing talent. Surely one of your best.
                             Ida

EmmaRose
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since 2011-03-02
Posts 1376
Midwest
7 posted 2011-11-06 01:45 PM


Isn't it interesting the sometimes the very best writing is of the lacerations that Love
etches on our tender hearts.
I do understand this.

suthern
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8 posted 2011-11-08 08:38 AM


But I write from current experience
And that would mean that I would have to be vulnerable
That I would have to put my heart on the line
I don’t know if I can do that
Again

I understand how hard it is... and tend to avoid that not by avoiding the write but by delaying the post until I'm less raw. As you find an answer that works for you, I hope you keep your heart open and your pen at work.  

catalinamoon
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9 posted 2011-11-08 07:22 PM


I understand this feeling. I didn't think I could do it again either. And yet I found I have, though it is a foregone conclusion to have a poor resolution, love is love, and is too strong to deny. When the person you love is in front of you, you stop being afraid.(sort of)
Sandra

JL
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since 2004-04-01
Posts 6128
Texas, USA
10 posted 2011-11-08 07:31 PM


"I believe in faith
I believe in hope
I believe in the general goodness of mankind
But I don’t trust mankind with my heart
It’s too fragile…far too easily broken or wounded
To write of Love…would mean that I would have to love and
I don’t know if I can do that
Again"

This is so sad.  

You can, but you will need to give and not expect anything in return.
That is when you will be overwhelmed in love.

Blessings.

JL

Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul,and with all your mind. Love your neighbor as yourself.
Maranatha!

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