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Venting Prose: Do You Know How It Feels?
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Venting Prose: Do You Know How It Feels? |
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Amberzlynnc Member
since 2010-08-24
Posts 229New Jersey 
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Do you know how it feels to feel completely alone? How it feels to be surrounded by people all of the time, and yet feel like everyone around you is there because they have to be there. Or, everyone is there for someone else and you just happen to be there as well. Do you know how it feels to want love, and never, ever receive it? How it feels to look sheepishly around for love anywhere it might be found for forty-two years and always end up with your heart pounded into the ground? How it feels to be rejected when you were a child, from your mother, from your father, from the kids at school. How it feels to be married to a man whose false love was uncovered 13 years into the marriage. How it feels to be in a relationship with a man for 8 years, who claims to love you, yet does absolutely nothing to show it. Do you know how it feels to want nothing more than to talk to someone? How it feels to scroll through the contacts in your phone and realize that you have not one name in there that you could send a “Hi... can we talk?” text message to. I don’t know how it feels, but I can imagine how it feels. And it hurts me so much inside. So much that I wish it was me who had to feel all of those things. And it’s selfish, I know. Selfish to want to feel these things myself so that I wouldn’t have to witness someone I love feel these things. I wish there was more I could say, but I don’t know how to put it into words. Do you know how that feels? *Amber |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
Oh, you put it into words quite brilliantly, I would say, Amberzlynnc. Your compassion is exemplary to the point of sainthood. To shed your blood so another would not have to. But since you cannot take this persons lifelong rejections and soul-searching for someone to love them, truly love them, you do what you can. You emphasize and you vent. I, for one, am glad you did. ~ Husbands are chiefly good lovers when they are betraying their wives.--Marilyn Monroe ~ |
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Daddy Goose38 Member
since 2010-09-04
Posts 430obama's a rice paper tiger |
Hi Amber Hwhat can I say to this deeply painful and personal write? As I read, I wasn’t sure whether it reffered to the author or to someone else, a friend maybe, but mnaybe it’s a bit of both? I can still feel rather lost at parties with a bunch of people who can hear normally and or contuinally distracted by things I am never going to hear especially when the noise level is rising, unable to hear the jokes or the television or whatever it is they are laughing or talking about. While in college I began to lose my hearing quickly by an unknown illness and my life began to fall apart. I took the attitude tward people who wouldn’t talk to me of: To HELL with them. Years later I gravitated to friends who did not mind that I was deaf, and learned to completely ignore people who wouldn’t include me in their lives. Through the computer and writing I accidently learned to find others who cared and to whom it didn’t matter that I am blind and deaf. I won’t bug you with more “stuff” as I don’t know you … well that’s not ture we all know you at least a bit better than before. Jaime |
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