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Nature Of My Beast
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Nature Of My Beast |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere 
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It lurks in the empty darkness of its content Biding its time mapping my fault lines testing tremors Waiting for my perfect storm to create its quake that shakes and crumbles my self esteem Into broken pieces of worthlessness ugly and stupid Creating a pitiful pile of guilt and a skinful of shame seeking solace of the flesh |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
You know that "beast" and have illustrated it here very well. Oh, that "lurking" is so subtle that we succumb again and again ... Yet, to be aware of this process means also to be able to find the way to fight it. Very impressive write, dear Lori. Love, Margherita |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Probably mostly in your own mind. You're a very intelligent woman who doesn't give herself enough credit. Intelligence sometimes creates such double thought, even when it's not necessary. I wouldn't worry too much at all. You're a very good person and that shows more than anything else. have a great day! Eric |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Yes Margherita, one learns to fight it, finding new ways all the time. I apreciate your understanding. Lori |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Eric, I know it is in my head and that it will pass and you hold on to that because when you are in the dark, that's not the way it feels. Thanks for your kind words Lori |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
Been there. Done that. Took me a long time to kick the hell out of mine. You'll be better at kicking the hell out of yours, I'm thinking ~ OK, so what's the speed of dark? ~ |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
I'm definitely not trying to disregard your feelings. I'm trying to encourage you. I'm old enough to be your father and I've seen a lot. It's a scientific fact that panic attacks and thoughts similar are a learned response. Most people come to a realization that there's absolutely nothing on the other side of a panic attack or similar feelings. Absolutely nothing that can possibly help you in any way whatsoever. Not making light of your emotions but they can be a total waste of time. Some of us are super sensitive and that leads to a racing of thoughts toward the possible worst, with no real foundation. I'm probably making things worse Lori However, I have read many of your works here and I know you're a good person and mean well toward others. That in itself is a treasure worth more than gold! Take care Eric |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Jerry, thanks for the encouragement, it has gotten better over the years.  Lori |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Eric, I hear where you are coming from and I understand. you are so right. Thanks again for your very kind comments. Lori [This message has been edited by Lori Grosser Rhoden (03-28-2011 03:55 PM).] |
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faithmairee Senior Member
since 2011-01-05
Posts 1441Poe Haven, USA |
you are an amazing writer and one of my favorite poets here...thank you for sharing this deeply personal poem...you are stronger than you think...you are smarter than you think...you are more appreciated than you know...thank you for your friendship There must be a poem in here somewhere. [This message has been edited by faithmairee (03-29-2011 06:21 PM).] |
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Klassy Lassy Member Elite
since 2005-06-28
Posts 2187Oregon |
The perfect storm is no match for wings. May you fly above it and witness rainbows. How vibrant they are and leave no room for dragons.  |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Faith, you overwhelm me with your kind response. you are a good friend. Just wanted to let everyone know that my "downer poems" are transient in nature and not to get too concerned. Thank you Faith you are special too Lori |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Klassy Lassy-most of the time I have wings and about that dragon...sometimes I get weary of keeping one eye open on him. Other people who have struggled with depression understand that sometimes its like catching a cold...it just happens and you have to make the best of it. Thank you so much for your wonderful support. I will reread these responses the next time I feel a "cold" coming on. Lori |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
I know you will know, Lori, that I am not trying to make light of your depression, and I know that your dragon is of a metaphorical nature, but I just couldn't resist the chance to say that some dragons are really cute and not all dragons breathe fire. I seem to remember a child's story about a friendly dragon. But yes, I do concur that it is wise to avoid some metaphorical dragons. Hugs (and I know you will bump out of the depression) Owl |
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Amaryllis Senior Member
since 2010-05-20
Posts 1306Mi now |
Amazing writing, capturing those darker emotions... I feel you. Be well, my dear. Amaryllis |
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Alison 
since 2008-01-27
Posts 9318Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy! |
Love this too. I have a potato gun. It doesn't do much for confidence, but it's hell on the beast. xoxoxo Alison |
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