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LeeJ
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0 posted 2009-06-16 08:55 AM




Personal Experience


you got heartbreak written all over you
homage or threat?
did you believe in my naivety?

cultural formations & weak philosophical text
you found a variety of fields
in the sound of humanity

intelligently employing interdisciplinary methods~
ohhhh my how good you pretend!

chaos to gain a firm foundation in a second arena
I am that arena
your soul purpose in life
you hate me so...

the tool necessary, for your darkest visual art
diverse forms compliment your method of media
center staging high maintenance, emotionally
and otherwise

but I am from a world you've never known
that is what you despise
ahhh yes, you stole any childhood that lived
your sabbatical found
in keeping temporal distance
working so hard to rebound
rooted hatred, fear, frustrations
of those who speared your heart

significant spaces
translated your topography
you rule your world
with ultra dramatic components

digging a fleet of events
building imaginary walls
observed by your rules
and modern surveillance
never caring about feelings
only results, results, results
that best fit your purpose

and a heart as cold as ice
this momentary assessment you're thrusted
upon my land
becomes your abstract commodity
something on which you feed
you personally own and attend

your symbol of love died with potential
in your underworld of intense dislike
but you will never taste an easterly wind
nor soar its waterfall
you imagine yourself detached from the world
changing art, representing strange power
in your far off out of body experience

you've raped this nation
diminished inner from outer
endlessly permeable, while
your constantly looking in the mirror

one day, the embodiment
of your discourse, will turn and look
you straight in the eyes
then and only then, in that brief second
will you realize what you've undermined

by then, my friend, your beauty will be gone
the ghastly atrocities you've embodied
will resonate within

as for me, I feel nothing
and regret for trying, so long
I ask you
do you know your angry most
of the time, but don't know why?
your choice, your intimidation
lies
deceit, pain, sorrow, despair
aren't you proud...?


Personal Experience
by Lee J. Erdo


[This message has been edited by LeeJ (06-18-2009 10:18 AM).]

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Sunshine
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1 posted 2009-06-16 11:15 AM


but I am from a world you've never known

~*~

Yes, m'friend, you've life experiences
that she is missing and will never regain
if she should keep you from those you love
most.

I'm sorry to hear that this is still going
on - I had hoped she would have backed off
by now to share the love of a total family
and such as that you have to give.




WTBAKELAR
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2 posted 2009-06-16 12:55 PM


Been there, done that,
Thank God there is such a thing as
"DIVORCE"
If not, I would have been convicted of necessary homicide.

I am a much happier person now.
She is still a pain in my backside, because I was stupid enough to create children with the daughter of Satan.

Sometimes it takes a while for young men to learn hard lessons.

Take care, it will get better.
Tracey.

Margherita
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3 posted 2009-06-16 03:47 PM


How sad and also frightening, dear Lee J.. You have given your emotions very powerful expression. And I doubt not for a second that you have really tried hard. Why we live such experiences is sometimes hard to understand and still there must be a reason, as there is in all things we live and go through. We may know later. It is always a two way experience. Maybe this woman sees in you "the former woman of her husband", instead of seeing you as his mother. That's why she can't accept you, you are seen as a rival. May you find serenity, dear Lee J. And hopefully something will open her eyes as to why she acts in the way she does. Hopefully!

Good to  have you back!

Love and hugs.
Margherita


Dark Stranger
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4 posted 2009-06-16 03:53 PM


ms lee-j..just stay lovely as you are, you will peel the skin from her soul eventually..don't give her your power!!
Dr.Moose1
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Bewilderment , USA
5 posted 2009-06-16 04:06 PM


LeeJ.
You've done an excellent job here of describing someone the likes of which no-one in their right mind would want to meet,
( lol, remind me to stay on your good side ). Seriously though, best of luck with your situation, unfortunately, some people are just impossible to deal with.
Doc

Honeybunch
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since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115
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6 posted 2009-06-17 04:19 PM


LeeJ - This is such a sad write but it's always good to get "things" out.  I try to always see and appreciate the essential being behind the human facade but sometimes the "glare" sends me running and hiding although I must plead guilty to also sometimes staring straight back.  I hope time will heal the wounds.

Hugs
Helen    

LeeJ
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7 posted 2009-06-17 06:04 PM


many thanks dear hearts for your words of kindness...Love to you and yours

Lee J.

[This message has been edited by LeeJ (06-18-2009 10:19 AM).]

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8 posted 2009-06-22 01:48 AM


I keep reading.  And I have read this pome several times - it fits in a hollow place I have right now.

LeeJ, I have missed you.

Alison

nakdthoughts
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Between the Lines
9 posted 2009-06-23 07:34 AM


"but you will never taste an easterly wind
nor soar its waterfall"

Beautifully expressed, Lee. (Although I do not know the background of your experience, I can feel your strength in words)


M

Earth Angel
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10 posted 2009-06-23 01:09 PM


What a fantastic, powerfully-expressed vent and a half! Oh, my Lee J, it's about time you spilled your guts! ~ even if it is on paper and not to her face. Let it out, Darlin' ~ Let is ALL out! By gosh, I think you just did!
She has a lot of lessons to learn in this lifetime ~ and I sure hope she learns at least some of them.

I'm saving this ~ and you know why...

Love you! ~ and giving you a high five!!!

Linda

Artic Wind
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11 posted 2009-06-23 11:30 PM


This is very powerful and true words and emotion leak from the words of an amazing and gifted poetess!


ARCTIC WIND

jwesley
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563
Spring, Texas
12 posted 2009-06-24 03:22 PM


Experience molds and grows us, my friend, unless we choose to let it do otherwise...
enjoyed getting to know you a little better...

j.

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