I completely understand how you feel. You really got to the point quickly and described the situation well, but in a way that still kept me interested in how it would end. Great first post. =]
Now, speaking from my own experience I'd have to say that even though it feels like it'll never go away, sometimes it does. other times it doesn't but all you have to do then is think back to all the times it has.
That feeling of being alone even in a group of people. Feeling like you can't let your guard down because it's too hard to put it back up. and crying, not because you're sad but because you don't know what else to do.
All these things can overwhelm us to a point where we feel like we are spinning in circles and wont ever be able to find our way. But I'll tell you what, all you have to do is get someones attention and ask for directions. It's true that most times that's harder than sitting it out, and sometimes there isn't any other way, but if we just sit around waiting for answers we wont find them.
just some thoughts.
I hope you find your way soon. =]
I have a pet unicorn...his name is Flavius, as in Flavius Belby. Flavius does not like gumballs..