Thank you for the heart-felt and wrenching write. It really took a lot of reaching deep for this one. But this is, of course, the easy one to do of the two that the exercise demands. The second half is much more difficult and will make you very uncomfortable, but it needs to be done to make this one complete.
What you need to do, is to take each one of these "I'm sorry" lines, and turn them inside out. Much more difficult. You will be left with a series of completely puzzling statements, that you will need to edit into a poem. You don't have to show the poem to anybody, and some of the lines will be completely wrong and off base, but some of them will hold some surprises for you, insights about the poem.
What you think about yourself, of course, is personal business, but when you're writing a poem, you can allow yourself to surprise yourself, and maybe shock yourself and sometimes delight yourself and make yourself think a bit.
I'm sorry (I'm freaking thrilled!))
When I'm not strong enough (I'm overjoyed when I find I'm strong enough!)
When I disappear in my own world (I'm blown away when I make myself real in this world!)
I'm sorry (I'm happy when you show yourself to me)
When I canít see you
I'm sorry I"m pleased when you speak up!)
When I canít hear you
I'm sorry (I'm pleased that I have a range of feelings!)
When I'm moody
When I'm happy and your sad (I'm glad that you and I aren't the same person, and don't have to pretend to have the same reactions to things at the same times)
When you feel like crap and I feel like a hundred bucks (I'm happy when I feel like a hundred bucks, and I'd love to be able to share that with you when you feel able to accept that from me.)
I include a few examples here, so show you what I mean. It's best that the things you say be as true as the other things. Lying isn't helpful in these situations, though sometimes in poetry, if you can come up with a really spectacular lie, that can be helpful, too. But we're just talking about different points of view on the truth here, and understanding that different things are true at the same time.
I hope you don't feel like I'm too much of a dingbat for suggesting you complete your wonderful exercise, but I'd really like to see what you can do if you exercise some of that creativity I see running through these lines already.
Thanks for your willingness to read this far, Madelyn.
All my best, Bob Kaven